Wednesday, December 31, 2008


....of a year gone and a year yet to start.

2008....what can I say about this year? Well it's been a pretty good one. I've reconnected with some long lost friends. All three kids are doing fantastic in school and I get to go in and volunteer at the girls' school once a week.

Granted I did have some health issues (I'm having gallbladder removal surgery on the 12th) but it's nothing that is life threatening. We also had some financial issues that we are now past and determined to never fall back into.

But overall we had a good year. Our family all came out to visit us (um Papa John the kids still ask to see you ;) ) and we had a great time with all of you.

Now for 2009!

We are hoping to make 2009 as good a year, if not better than 2008. Hopefully this summer we can make the journey out to California for a visit. In the fall both girls will be in school all day, cutting down my time spent in my vehicle driving them to and from school. Then Little Man will be in school three mornings a week giving me even more time to myself!!! What will I do??? Probably volunteer in the girls' school more, LOL.

Peaches will turn 8, Tink will be 6 and my Little Man will be 4 (the age Peaches was when Little Man was born, scary). Dear Sweet Hubby and I will celebrate 12 years of wedded bliss in July!

But as I think of all that I know will happen in 2009 I have to wonder about all those unknowns that are bound to happen......will the year bring us a transfer away from our beloved Colorado? Will our ship finally come in and we finally win the lottery??? (oh please oh please oh please!!!) And then there is the dreaded thoughts about what bad things might occur. I try not to dwell on those, as really if they are going to happen most of the time there's nothing you can do about them. Yes you can live your life carefully so that you don't cause any of them to happen but there are outside forces out there that you can't control. So let's not think about that.....

So as 2009 gets ready to start I'm going to start it with a positive attitude and the determination to not only organize and purge my house, but also to soak in every moment with my husband and children, well the positive ones at least.....;)

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

It's just the five of us now...

...My in-laws just left like maybe 5 minutes ago and now it's just the five of us here in the house. Dear sweet hubby doesn't have to go into work until this afternoon, which is nice but then again I was hoping to get started on taking down Christmas and doing a good cleaning like I do every year when I take down Christmas. But I guess that will have to wait until after he leaves for work. You see I've come the conclusion no good cleaning can be done while the man is home. I can't exactly pinpoint why, but it's always been the case, especially since the kiddos have come along.

We had a good visit with the in-laws. The kids always enjoy having them around to show things to. I think in the first 10 minutes they were here Tink showed them every new Christmas decoration we had. Plus my MIL taught Peaches to crochet and me to knit, so it was a productive visit as well. Peaches says she'll teach me to crochet if I teach her to knit. It will be interesting to see how well she can teach me to crochet, considering she's only almost 8.

So now that the holiday is over it is time to not only take down the Christmas decorations but also time to plan my big project 2009......FINALLY PURGING THE HOUSE OF ALL UNNEEDED ITEMS!!!!!!!!!!! This is the year that I'm going to reclaim my house and hopefully have less crap laying around. Now let's see if I can actually accomplish it.

Friday, December 26, 2008

Real quick

It's a sort of chaos here with all the new games and crafty stuff the kids got and then when you add Grandma and Grandpa visiting, the chaos amps up a bit. But I had a few minutes to play on my blog so I thought I'd get festive for the new year.

I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and that the New Year brings you nothing but health, happiness and the joy that is having family around you!

Now time to return to the chaos and possibly save my in-laws from the overwhelming force that is my children........

Monday, December 22, 2008

Merry Christmas to all!!!

Well the house is clean and I just finished mopping the downstairs, so it's time to rest a little. I still need to make the bed my in-laws will be sleeping in but that should be easy. So while I have this moment of rest I thought I'd wish all my readers (wow that sounds so professional, to have readers, LOL) a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! Knowing that there are people out there who actually like what I have to say and don't tune me out like my dear sweet hubby foolishly once admitted to doing on occasion, makes me feel kind of important in a way.

Anyway, I hope you and your families have an absolutely wonderful holiday and get all that you were hoping for. Because I'm sure you all deserve it, right?

Well time to get going again and make that bed before I lose all oomph and fall asleep right here in this chair.

So until I post again, which should be before the end of the year............HAVE A BLESSED CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Half way there...

Well the upstairs is done but let's see if the kiddos can keep it as clean as it is now. I just have to do the downstairs now. Then of course there will be a last minute vacuum everywhere I can as the dog is shedding something awful these days. Dear sweet hubby and I joked about making his parents a gift basket that had two lint brushes and two spray bottles with water in them. You see we use a spray bottle with water to get the dog to stop doing things. It works so much better than just saying no. Now all we need to do is show the dog the spray bottle and he stops. Soooo I figure if my in-laws both have spray bottles the dog will be sure to leave them alone.

Now I guess I should feed the kiddos and myself before attempting to clean the downstairs. I'm gonna need the energy from eating lunch as the upstairs really pooped me out.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Sitting here working up the energy to....

....clean my house top to bottom.

The in-laws arrive on Monday and I gotta get this house into shape. Now don't get me wrong I'm not doing it because they are picky or hard to impress, but rather because it gives me an excuse to get my butt in gear and do it.

Usually I just do the daily cleaning of dishes, laundry, vacuuming, sweeping, wiping down dirty spots on walls and windows. But the "clean it so it looks like it's for sale" cleaning doesn't happen unless I have company coming over. So I actually like having company so I have to do a better job.

I know what you are probably thinking, "Why doesn't she just try to keep it looking really good all the time? Then she wouldn't have to kill herself cleaning it for company!" Well I do try but when you have 4 people and a dog, who sheds like he can't get rid of the extra hair fast enough, working against you it's a bit hard to keep up. I can't be cleaning 24/7 which is probably what I'd have to do if I were to keep it company clean all the time.

I keep thinking that if we had a bigger house and more storage (this house has so little really) that it would be so much easier but somehow some way I don't think that would be the case. I tend to get this inkling that maybe just maybe it would be just as bad, we'd just have more space to spread the "stuff" around........

So until I can finally find out if a bigger house would help or not, I have to clean the house I have now. So time to go get some liquid energy (aka coffee) and get going. Of course the most fun part about all this is I have to get my kiddos to help out too........I may need LOTS of coffee for that....................

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Teacher gifts....oh the agony

I don't mean that I don't like giving them, as I am so grateful for each of my children's teachers. Instead the agony I have is over what to give them for Christmas. I mean I already struggle with the end of year gifts, as I know all too well from my mother-in-law, who is a retired teacher, about how teachers can accumulate a ton of stuff that they don't have the space to store. So I try to pick things that they can use once and be done with or don't have to store, like flowers.
But for a Christmas gift, what do you give??? Do you give as much of a gift as you give for the end of year present? And how much do you spend??? I have three kids so whatever I spend on one teacher I'm gonna have to spend on all three teachers, so that can add up!

You see I wasn't really planning on doing anything for any teacher other than my favorite teacher, Miss Elaine (aka the world's best pre-school teacher EVER), but then my girls noticed I was making cookies to give to Miss Elaine and they wanted to give their teachers cookies too. And then my friend Ingrid called me to get my opinion on a teacher gift and that got me to thinking about it all. I mean how much do you mothers reading this spend??? Do you go all out on the gifts or do you just skip the Christmas gift and do just an end of the year gift???

I mean I don't want to go in the poor house just trying to give my children's teachers gifts but I don't want to seem like a cheapskate either. I know most teachers would probably just prefer a nice thank you, but what are you to do when your kid wants to give their teacher a gift???

I dunno, it all seems like one more thing to fret and worry about. Like I really need another thing to fret and worry about!!!

Monday, December 15, 2008

Baby it's frigid outside....

....notice I didn't say cold? Well that's because it's not just cold it's frigid. I think when your high for the day is like maybe 2 degrees frigid works as a better description of the day than cold. Cold is like 30's or maybe 40's. However we got nowhere near that today. I mean this morning when I woke and went to check the temp on the computer it said it was -17!!!! Yes I did just type -17 and no that wasn't a typo.

I wish it was though....

I mean I love snow, love it, it's so much prettier than rain. Nothing looks more beautiful than a city dusted in snow. Especially those bare trees with the snow clinging to the branches for dear life.

But the super cold temps I can't stand. It's not only inhumane but it makes it darn near impossible for me to breathe. Being an asthmatic the extremely cold air does a number on me and I have to wear a scarf just so I can breathe through it.

Right now as I type it's apparently -4 outside. Tomorrow we warm up to a nice 15 degrees and then on Friday we'll be ready for flip flops as it will be a toasty 30 for a high. ;) But in the next 10 days we won't get any warmer than 30 degrees, so the snow we got on Saturday night won't be going anywhere any time soon. Plus they are calling for more snow in the next ten days so we'll have the white Christmas I requested in honor of my in-laws visit next week. But somehow I don't think they'll enjoy the frigid temps as much........

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Waking up with a headache can ruin your whole day

and I really hate that!

I mean I made sure I had my cup of coffee, or two, this morning and took some Tylenol with my breakfast but yet this blasted headache has persisted and only faded for short periods of time causing my whole day to have a sort of icky feel to it.

I mean I did get Little Man's room clean and with a little, actually A LOT of persuasion I got the girls to clean their room. And I also finished up some window treatments for Little Man's room, just need to get the curtain rod to hang them now. However it doesn't feel like such a good day since this headache keeps coming and going.

Of course maybe the fact I slept horribly last night has something to do with it. Little Man had a hard time sleeping which meant I had a hard time sleeping.

First he came into our room but then couldn't get comfortable, squirming all over the place and being fussy. So I took him back to bed, where he started to cry and fuss as soon as I left the room. Now mind you he's 3 1/2 but even though most people associate the word fussy with babies, this little boy was as fussy as they come. So then he came back into bed with me but dear sweet hubby was snoring at that point so Little Man was laying there with his fingers in his ears and grumbling about how noisy daddy was. So finally I took him back to bed and stayed with him until he fell back asleep.

This whole saga started around 1 am and ended around 3 am, so there's two hours lost out of my night's sleep. I went to bed around 10:45 and ended up waking up around 7:30 when Little Man once again entered my room. So let's see that's about 2 hours and 15 minutes the first go round and then 4 and a half hours the second go round. Total about 6 hours and 45 minutes but that wasn't continuous so it makes for horrible quality of sleep.

You know I'm thanking my lucky stars that dear sweet hubby has tomorrow off and there's no school because that means no alarm and hopefully a lazy morning, but somehow I doubt that....... ;)

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Been a little preoccupied

With dear sweet hubby working the day shift again, finally, I've been a bit busy the past few nights enjoying his company. But tonight he's gone to bed early as his system is still trying to get used to being up during the day and asleep at night. So now I have time to sit on the computer and blog. I really wish we had a lap top so I could sit downstairs with him at night and still do stuff on the computer, but no lap top here, so that dream will have to wait a bit.

Plus I've been kind of lacking in anything worth while to blog about. I've been really pooped lately and I recently heard that it could be due to the gallstones I have, so maybe after I get my gallbladder out I'll get some energy back. Speaking of which, I meet my surgeon on Tuesday the 23rd, so at that point I should have a date for the surgery. I'm still kind of nervous about it but the idea of no more pain or discomfort and some actual energy is what's keeping me going ahead with having the surgery.

Tomorrow the girls have their school Christmas program, so that should be interesting. It's always fun to watch the kids up there, you know the ones that are really into it and the ones that aren't and the music teacher trying her best to get everyone into it. Then next Thursday Little Man will have his first Christmas program, which with 8 three year old's should be even more interesting than the one tomorrow. I'll have to be sure to have the camcorder charged for that one for sure!!!!

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

No longer conflicted, which is good I guess...

.....I mean I now know what's causing the pain in my abdomen, so I can't be conflicted about what I'd want the cause of the pain to be anymore.

You see I found out yesterday that the pain is being caused by gallstones, precisely what I was hoping it wasn't. But I guess in the end it's a good thing as it is treatable and not life threatening, at least not that I know of.

So in talking with my doctor she said I could live a long time with gallstones but that they would continue to cause me pain, so I could also opt to have my gallbladder out. Wanting the cause of the pain and discomfort gone (since I guess I really don't need my gallbladder anyway, which seems odd to me), I opted for having the gallbladder yanked.

Dear sweet hubby has kindly requested that I wait till after the first of the year so his work schedule isn't so hectic, which is probably fine since I doubt they'd rush me in since I'm not exactly an emergency case.

But still the idea of surgery, whether it be before of after the first of the year, kind of freaks me out. I mean how many times have we heard about people who have complications from routine surgeries and end up 6 ft under??? My neighbor across the street had her gallbladder taken out in the summer and they nicked a bile duct causing her to stay in the hospital for like two weeks!!! See why I'm a bit nervous??? Who's to say they won't do that to me??? I can't stay in the hospital for two weeks and dear sweet hubby sure as heck can't take all that time off!!!

Okay now I'm really freaking myself out, time to just relax and try to remind myself that every case is different and that what happened to my neighbor more than likely won't happen to me as well.

Alright I'm gonna sign off now and go do some cleaning to get my mind off of surgery mishaps....... :s

Sunday, December 7, 2008

The Agony of Defeat

That's it!!! I give up!!! I can't do it anymore, nope, no way, no how!!! I surrender!!!

Why am I being so dramatic? Well other than it being my nature to do so, ;) , I've decided that no matter how hard I try I just can't keep this house clean. I mean I've tried to get rid of stuff and believe me there have been several boxes of toys that have been dropped off at the local Goodwill Store, but it just seems to keep coming back, like a fungus you try to get rid of but it grows again and again.

I grew up in a house that was no more than 900 sq. ft. and there were four of us in the family and we had at least one dog and one cat at all times, but yet that house NEVER felt small to me until we moved to a larger home after my grandmother died. Then all of a sudden it felt really small. Now I go back and forth as to whether the house never felt small because that was all I was used to or if it was because of the fact that my parents never let us accumulate too much junk. Every January we'd clean out our closets and get rid of all we didn't need or use. So the rooms (and closets) never felt crowded.

But that is so not the case with this house and it's twice as big as the house I grew up in. Now I realize we have one more family member, but still that shouldn't make that much of a difference right? I mean we have 1849 sq. ft. here and 5 people living in it and it feels like it's the size of a shoebox some days. Now dear sweet hubby knows we need to get rid of stuff but he has no down time really and what little he does he doesn't want to spend going through crap and I can't say that I blame him. But most of the stuff I can't get rid of without his approval or agreement, so I'm stuck. Now with the kids, I've gone through their stuff while they've been in school and gotten rid of quite a bit but yet it still seems like they have too many toys. And Christmas is just weeks away!!! Then when you add in the fact that Peaches' birthday is a mere 4 weeks after Christmas and then Tink has her birthday 3 1/2 weeks after Peaches, the flow of incoming stuff doesn't end for a whopping 8 weeks!!! Oy vey, I'm tired just thinking of all that.

So what's a girl to do? Do I continue to purge the kids' toys when they are at school and accidentally get rid of something they truly treasure that I had no clue about? I mean I've already tried having them go through the stuff but I barely got a Wal-Mart sized bag of stuff from them. And Little Man is just too young to really decide what to keep and what to give away, he wants it all.

So until dear sweet hubby gets transferred and we have to move or we magically win loads of money and can buy a bigger house, I guess I will just continue trying to bail out the Titanic, so to speak. It's a fruitless effort but one I'm gonna have to make in order to keep some semblance of order in the house........

Friday, December 5, 2008

November changed me

After a whole month of daily grateful posts I still find myself thinking about what I should post that I am grateful for. But then I'll stop and think that it's not November anymore so I don't have to worry about doing those posts anymore.

However the more I think about it the more I realize that it wasn't such a burden to do them. I mean while some days I just want to crawl into bed and sleep to escape the chaos that can be my life, I do have a lot to be grateful for, some major things like my family and friends and others not so major like modern conveniences and, um, alcohol. *blushing*

Especially in today's economy with so many having to either go without or move out of their houses because they can't afford them anymore. The fact that I have a roof over my head and can afford to feed my family helps me to remember to be grateful as well.

So I guess in a way this post is about being grateful for doing a month of grateful posts as it seems to have had an effect on me and how I go about my day. Because now I go about looking for things to be grateful for and not things to dread or dislike.

Thursday, December 4, 2008


Conflicted??? Why?
Well there's a bit of a back story so let me explain........

Back about a week before Labor Day I started having heartburn at night so I started taking Maalox and I was drinking it like it was going out of style. Then the heartburn started happening after lunch as well as dinner so I knew something was up. I went online (which I'm sure most doctors love) and tried to self diagnose. I found out that if you take anti-inflammatory meds for a long time (which I was at the time) it can cause ulcers which have....yep you guessed it, heartburn as a symptom. So off to the doctor I go. She gives me 3 weeks worth of Prevacid and says to come back at the end of those 3 weeks and tell me if that helps. Well it helps, hallelujah, so back I go to say yep that did it. She gives me another 6 weeks worth of the stuff and says that if it comes back after that to come back in.

So 6 weeks later I finish up the supply and guess what, it comes back. So back to the doctor I go. She says well it could be a number of things and has me have some blood drawn so they can check my liver function, pancreas function and to see if I have a bacteria in my stomach that causes ulcers. She also gives me a prescription for a new med, Nexium, for the heartburn. The other stuff did a number on me. You don't want to know those details. ;)

Well the blood work came back fine, great, so now I have to go in for an ultrasound on my abdomen to see if I have gallstones. Ohhh fun! Well tomorrow is the ultrasound and because I have to drop the girls off at school at 9 and dear sweet hubby is working I have to wait until 9:15 for my appointment. Now granted that wouldn't be a bad thing if it weren't for the fact I CAN'T EAT OR DRINK AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!! What you mean I can't have my cup of coffee first thing??? I can't have my bowl of Cream of Wheat??? Not even some water??? Nope!!! No food or drink. UGH!! Maybe I'll accidentally swallow some water while I'm brushing my teeth.....

Okay so here's why I'm conflicted......if they find gallstones that could mean surgery to have my gallbladder removed. I mean the only other treatment for gallstones that I've seen is to let them pass but if I've had this problem since August, wouldn't you think they should have passed already??? So do I want to have it be the gallstones and then have to have surgery right before Christmas??? Or do I want them to find nothing and have to try and figure out what's going in there???

To be honest I have no clue all I know is I'm tired of not feeling 100% and if you were to ask me right now what I want for Christmas I'd say to feel as good as I did when I was 25!!!! LOL

ETA: I had the ultrasound but the lady who did it was unable to give me any information, some quality assurance thing. So it will probably be Monday, possibly Tuesday before my doctor calls me with the results. Most of the time I couldn't see what she was looking at but I did see her checking my kidney and I saw the word "spleen" on the screen once. So we'll see.....

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

My hands smell like bleach....

...for a good reason. I just got done mopping my laundry room in preparation for my new front loader washer and dryer!!! WooHoo!!! Now while I am extremely excited about a new washer and dryer it's not as much fun when you HAVE to buy them as it is when you WANT to buy them.

You see our washer and dryer are like 12 years old and weren't the top of the line when we got them. Well all the years of abuse have taken their toll. The dryer is slowly dying, with me having to set it to timed dry on the highest setting to get anything to dry in one timed load. Of course jeans and towels still require two times to get dry.

And the washer had some problems earlier this year that my dear sweet hubby was able to fix but now it's got some other problem going on, don't ask me as I can't remember, that my dear sweet hubby doesn't have the time to fix and he doesn't want to pay the enormous amount that a washer repairman would charge for labor and parts. So we found a great deal on an LG front loader pair at Home Depot. Merry Early Christmas to me!

Now some might wonder about me being excited about a new washer and dryer, but you have to keep in mind that I prefer to do laundry over cooking a meal. So a new washer and dryer is to me like a new cooking gadget is to a foodie!

So once the lovely delivery guys drop them off and they get installed I'll be sure to post a pic so you can bask in the beauty that is my new washer and dryer with me! ;)

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Oh, the weather outside is frightful,

But the fire is so delightful,
And since we've no place to go,
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow.
Ah yes, let it snow, let it snow, let it snow. Now I know sometimes I end up cursing the snow, but dang if that first snow doesn't make me feel all giggly inside. I mean there are times I still can't believe that I live in Colorado where it actually snows. Mind you it doesn't snow as much as some places, but like dear sweet hubby says "It's snows enough to enjoy but not enough to hate".
However I do know some people here in my town that hate the tiny amount of snow we do get, but I don't know why as it never sticks around long. Most of the time if you wait long enough the snow on your driveway will melt before you really need to shovel it. However I do enjoy shoveling snow, I just keep thinking of all the calories I'm burning as I do it. (The same mind set I have when I mow the lawn!)
Plus the kids NEVER get sick of the snow. They LOVE it every time it snows, seriously they do! Peaches especially. That girl could play all day in the snow if you let her. Now Tink, she lasts a little while but then she gets cold and wants to come in. Ahhhh another way she's just like her momma. I can last a little while but then the cold creeps in and I have to go inside. Plus I don't have snow pants like the kids do and my poor jeans don't protect me one bit from the snow and cold. Now Little Man, he varies on how long he can stay out there. Some times he lasts a long time and others he wants to come in almost as soon as he got out there.
So why am I writing about snow??? Well they are calling for the first real snow in our area tomorrow and Thursday. We'll see if actually materializes as the weather here can change on a dime, seriously it can, so they can call for snow but then it can mysteriously disappear and never show up. So I guess tomorrow morning when we wake up to start our day we'll know if it is really going to happen and then I'll know if I get to burn some calories!!! ;)

Monday, December 1, 2008

I'm pooped

Okay, the month of grateful posts is over so now I'm gonna take this one post to complain a little.........

What's a girl gotta do to get a good night's sleep these days???? I have no infants who need to be fed or changed in the middle of the night, but for some reason I can't seem to sleep the whole night through lately. Well okay the last two nights Little Man has crawled into bed and that always puts a halt to any sleep I may have had. Oh sure I get a little shut eye but that's about it, I shut my eyes then he stirs and I open them again. But even before he started coming in, I wasn't sleeping solidly. I'd sleep a few hours solid then wake and continue to wake up almost every hour on the hour it seems. For the past 6 months or so I've taken to turning my alarm clock around so I can't just open my eyes and see the time, but dear sweet hubby doesn't do that so I can just roll over and see his alarm clock and know what time it is, so the whole idea of turning my clock around seems silly now, but I still do it anyway.

I hate the idea of taking a sleeping aid, especially with dear sweet hubby on his last week of this nasty midnight shift, as I want and NEED to be able to respond to anything that may happen. But shouldn't you be able to wake up after being in bed for 8 hours and feel rested??? I don't, I still feel pooped and that's no way to start a day with three kids to take care of and a house to clean.

Okay enough complaining, plus I'm yawning like crazy, whoops there's another one, so time to hit the hay and hope the eyes don't open until the alarm goes off bright and early tomorrow morning.......Nite nite!

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Grateful you've all enjoyed this month of grateful posts

I'm gonna make this quick as dear sweet hubby is waiting patiently (NOT!) for me to watch a show we both like, but I wanted to make sure that I got in my last grateful post of the month.

So for this last post I want to say that I am so grateful that I have gotten such a wonderful response to my month of grateful posts. I wasn't sure how it would go but I guess everyone else is like me and a little tired of hearing people complain all the time. Actually I was tired of posting gripes all the time. So now that I've done this for one whole month I think the tune of my posts will change. Oh they won't all be happy grateful posts, but they won't be all griping and complaining posts either. I will try to have a nice mix of things, but Heaven knows I'm gonna need to gripe about something every once in a while.......

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Grateful for my in-laws

I know I know, many of you wish you could wish your in-laws away, but I don't. I know some people may not believe me but I really like my in-laws.

Really I do and here are some reasons why....

*They've always accepted me with open arms. Never once have I felt like I'm not a full member of their family, even from the beginning.

*They've been there for me during some dark points in my life and let me know that I could come to them whenever I needed to.

*They are truly wonderful grandparents to my children. They thoroughly enjoy spending time with the kids and can't wait to come out and visit them.

*And last but not least, they've raised the wonderful man that I am so lucky to call my dear sweet hubby!!! They did a fantastic job and it's not their fault that he didn't retain the lesson on how to pick up his dirty clothes from the floor! LOL

Then there is my sister-in-law, seriously how did I get so lucky??? She's so wonderful at treating me like the sister she never had and even though I already have one sister, I gladly welcomed her as another.

So in this month of being grateful, I can't possibly forget the family that probably really appreciated that I decided to take on the challenge that is their son! Just kidding, I should actually call them the family that has been gracious enough to welcome this spaz into their loving family!!!!

Friday, November 28, 2008

Grateful for Christmas lights

We are nearing the end of the month and I'm slowly running out of things to be thankful for. Sad but true, I mean I could be thankful for things like hair dryers and toothpaste, but that doesn't seem really worthy of an entire post, does it? I've already covered the most important, my family and my friends, so what's left????

Christmas lights!!!

HUH? Well I can't tell you how cheery Christmas lights make me. I don't know why they do really but every time I see some in front of a house it makes me smile. Maybe it's the memory of a family tradition we had when I was growing up of taking one night to ride around and look at the lights in my home town. We used to do it one night after my maternal grandmother had come over for dinner. And even though after a while we kept hitting the same houses which had the same decorations each year we each enjoyed it enough to keep going.

Then one year we decided we'd judge the houses that put up lights but you had to wonder why in the world they did so, as it looked like they covered their eyes and just threw the lights before turning them on. Seriously there were some houses out there that had lights that had no rhyme or reason to how they were positioned.

Then there were those houses that lovingly put up the lights and made a wonderful scene for others to enjoy, because when you think about it, how much do you really get to enjoy your own Christmas lights??? Putting up lights is a way to spread some Christmas cheer. So this year, if you don't already, maybe put up a few lights and help spread the Christmas spirit and cheer to your neighbors.....

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Grateful for Thanksgiving

Not only for the actual holiday, I mean how many countries have a day set aside to be thankful???? Not many! But also for the food, yum yum.

The turkey, stuffing, yams, mashed potatoes, veggies, gravy and the Hawaiian sweet rolls.....oooh my mouth is watering as I type.

And then there is the leftover turkey to think face turkey sandwiches with the gravy poured over it.....turkey pot pie......turkey noodle soup.....oops gotta wipe the drool off of the keyboard.

But I have to sit and wonder how many people out there are actually grateful as they are making dinner today. I mean a lot of people are probably grumbling about having to cook so much for so many or about some relative that's coming over that they can't stand. But not my family. It will just be the five of us this year and we are all just grateful to have a day to spend together where no one has to go to work or school. And even if it weren't just the five of us and we had all our family around us, we'd be happy and grateful as we don't get to see them that much, so to be able to spend a day with them doing nothing but hanging out and eating would a lot of fun.

So to everyone out there reading this.....I hope you take a moment to stop and be truly grateful for all the blessings in your life, as while most days it may not seem like you have many you more than likely have lots of them. I also want to wish you all a very healthy and happy Thanksgiving!!!

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Grateful for my stepfather

I decided this morning as I was drying my hair, an event that takes longer than I'd like now that it's getting longer, that today's grateful post would be about the man who has changed my mother's life for the better. A man we all lovingly call Papa John, or as dear sweet hubby calls him "The Pizza Guy".

He entered her life about 6 1/2 years ago, before Tink was even baking, and it's been a joy to have him in our lives ever since. However I do have to confess that I was skeptical at first. I mean just about a year earlier my mom and dad split up and it wasn't exactly a pleasant split, then she dated a man who turned out to be a real piece of work, so when John entered the picture, being the good daughter I am, I was hesitant to embrace him until I had observed him a little more. Thankfully he did nothing but pleasantly surprise me. He's a generous man, who never has a bad word to say about anyone, well at least that I've heard. He's easy going and an avid football fan who can amazingly watch a game and not pound the floor or yell at the television if things don't go his teams way (something that ALWAYS happened in my house growing up).

But I think my two most favorite things about him are this......

He allows my mom to have friends and doesn't bad mouth or ridicule the ones she has when they aren't around. Something that never happened in my house growing up. Oh sure, my dad would be nice when my mom's few friends were around but once they left he'd complain about them for ridiculous reasons.

And he treats my mom like the queen she is!!! He is so loving and generous with her that you can just feel the love between them. And for that and that alone I will always be grateful for him. Towards the end of my parents' marriage my mom became more and more withdrawn. I didn't see it at the time but looking back I really see a difference in her. But now she's happy, she's in love and she's free, free to be herself and not feel judged for being so.

So during this month of grateful posts I think one of the most important ones is this one, as this man has made one of THE MOST IMPORTANT people in my life the happiest I've seen her in a long, long time. So thank you, thank you, thank you Papa John!!!!! My family and I love you dearly and thank our lucky stars you came into our lives!!!

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Grateful for modern conveniences

You know I don't know how housewives did it all before we had the dishwasher, the washing machine or dryer! I'm sure it all got done, as they didn't have TVs (or if they did there wasn't as much on to distract them) and they sure as heck didn't have computers or the Internet to steal their attention. But dang can you imagine how pooped those women must have been each night after hand washing everything?????
You see, right now I have a load in the dishwasher, the washing machine and the dryer. I know it's probably not that good to have a load in each going at the same time, but if I didn't do it this way I'd never get anything done and would have to get up in the middle of the night to move loads from one machine to another.
So a HUGE THANK YOU to whomever invented the modern dishwasher, washing machine and dryer, they are an enormous help to me on a daily basis!!! :)
OH and speaking of modern conveniences my alarm on my cell phone is going off to remind me to pick up Tink from Kindergarten, so it's time to sign off and once I get home it will be time to move those loads of dishes and clothes around some more.....

Monday, November 24, 2008

Grateful for my kiddos

Seriously people why haven't I been thankful for them yet??? Anyone have any ideas as I was sure I had already been grateful for them?? I dunno maybe I just think so much daily about how grateful I am for each of them that I must have assumed that I already posted it. Yeah that's it....I'm so dang grateful for them all day long, no matter how bad they act, that I just naturally thought I posted it already.... ;)

So without further ado, here's why I'm grateful for each of my kiddos.....

Peaches, ah my sweet sweet Peaches! We tried so hard for her and look at the wonderful prize we got. If you are wondering why I call her Peaches, it's because her father has a pinkish complexion and I have a yellowish one, so if you mix pink and yellow you get peach. Cute, huh? Anyway, I have to admit, regretfully, that I was slightly disappointed that she was a girl as I always wanted a boy first, since growing up I always wished I had an older brother. (In addition to my sister of course :) ) But once they put her in my arms, I knew that it couldn't have been any other way. She has been a source of constant joy and she amazes me on a daily basis. I mean the girl is in the second grade and she's reading at a fifth grade level!!!! Talk about proud. Plus she has been the best big sister. Well okay she's slipping as far as Tinkerbell is concerned these days, but when they were both much younger, Peaches was a great older sister to Tink. I'm having a hard time accepting that she'll be 8 in January. Where does the time go???

Then there's Tinkerbell, and boy does that name fit. Well if you look at the Tinkerbell from Peter Pan, now a days I think they make Tinkerbell a bit too sweet. In Peter Pan Tinkerbell was a bit more spirited or willful, which is so my Tinkerbell. She's been a spitfire ever since I was pregnant with her. At first we thought she was going to need surgery right after birth for a blocked bowel but then at the last moment it turned out her bowel wasn't blocked after all, so no surgery needed. Then she proceeded to poop like 4 or 5 times in the first few hours after she was born. Plus she raised my blood pressure during labor, something which did not happen with Peaches. So I told dear sweet hubby in the delivery room "This one's gonna give us gray hair!" But again I wouldn't have it any other way. She's so passionate about everything, which is part of her charm. And of course my mom is loving every minute of it as according to her Tink is JUST LIKE ME at that age!!! So I guess all those years of my mom wishing I'd get a child just like me are coming back to haunt me. Okay maybe "haunt" is a bit too strong of a word, but I can tell you this I have never apologized so much to my mother as I have since Tink's matching personality has emerged..... ;)

Then there is my Little Man. He steals my heart on a daily basis and I hope I never get it back. He means so much, not only because he's my youngest but also because he's the son I know my dear sweet hubby always wanted. I know DSH would never ever trade our girls for anything, but you could just see the relief on the man's face when he was told he wasn't going to have three weddings to pay for. LOL! Plus DSH is the only male in his family to carry on the family name, so to have a son to carry the name on meant a lot to him. And our Little Man has turned out to be a dangerous combination of DSH and myself. He looks like me and my side of the family but he has my hubby's ingenuity, which is scary. I mean the boy learned how to unlock the dishwasher before his sisters did and did so when he was about 2!!! He also tried to make some coffee the other day and did quite well, but it would have been weak coffee since he had like 8 cups of water but only a little bit of coffee. (KEEP IN MIND HE'S ONLY 3 1/2!!!) He also knows how to turn the key in the ignition so that he can open the car windows, very scary! Oh yeah and a few days ago he cracked open an egg into a glass WITHOUT GETTING ANY SHELL IN THE GLASS!!! I can't even do that!! Geesh!

All in all, for as frustrating as my darling kiddos can be, I would not give them up for anything in the world! They are each so special and unique in their own way and our family is now perfect because of each of them!!!

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Grateful for dear sweet hubby's day off

Dear sweet hubby had a very rare day off today and we all enjoyed having him around. We ran a few errands in the morning and then we attempted to put up some Christmas lights but Mother Nature had other ideas. It was very blustery out, so putting up Christmas lights would have been difficult at best. So we headed inside and then realized we were all out of Parmesan cheese and bread crumbs, which dear sweet hubby would need to make the fish we bought for dinner. So we headed to Wal-Mart and got that, a few other things and rented WALL-E and You Don't Mess With The Zohan from Redbox. When we got home it was a viewing of WALL-E and then dear sweet hubby made a delicious cod for dinner. My contribution was some rice pilaf, no applause please, it wasn't that hard really. ;)

All in all not a bad day but my favorite part was being able to turn and stare lovingly at him whenever I wanted. I think this year for Christmas I'm gonna ask Santa to make it so we can afford for dear sweet hubby to have just one job next year!!! That would be the best gift EVER!!!!

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Grateful that I'm remembering to be grateful

You know for all that I forget or forget to get done, I'm so proud that I have been so dang good about remembering to do my grateful posts this month. I've only slipped one day and well I think I had a pretty darn good excuse for not sitting my injured butt down in this hard wooden chair and being grateful.

But not only am I grateful that I remembered to be grateful, but also that I'm the type of person who can be grateful. There are people out there who feel entitled to all they receive, not thinking that maybe just maybe they don't deserve all they get. That having a loving wife and two adorable children are more than some people get in their life. That even though said loving wife's family has gone out of their way to help him and his wife out with everything from food to a place to live, he has not said so much as a sincere "Thank You". If you are wondering, yes I am referring to someone I know and it just bugs the snot out of me that this person can't be more grateful for all he has in his life. If anyone needs a wake up call to remind them to be grateful, it's him.

So I'm just glad that either by nature or nurture, I am the type of person who can still remember that while I may not have as much as some, I do have A LOT and I should be very grateful for all of it.

Friday, November 21, 2008

Grateful for friends....

....or more specifically the moms of my children's friends whom I'm friends with too.

When your kids are young you usually attend play dates with them so it really helps when you like the other mom enough to want to hang out with them. I can't imagine anything more uncomfortable than having to spend time with someone and not have much to talk about.

Thankfully that wasn't the situation this morning when Little Man and I went to a friends house for a play date. We were there for 2 hours and boy was it a fast two hours as the mom, I, and I spent the whole time chatting away upstairs while Little Man and G played their hearts out downstairs. It was nice to know that I was looking forward to the play date as much as Little Man was.

I have another friend, M, who has three kids like me, almost the exact same ages as my three, but she has three girls, which is fine as Little Man is enamored by M's youngest, E. But we have come up with an agreement that since we live in the same neighborhood we'll meet at our neighborhood park every Wednesday. We said it was a way for the kids to see each other since only E isn't in school at this point. But when it comes down to it I think that meeting is more for us than for the kids. With Little Man in school two days a week I don't seem to make it to as many activities for the moms club I belong to as I'd like. So meeting each Wednesday allows us the opportunity to catch up as well as the kiddos.

But I have to say that I am thankful for all my friends, whether they are parents of kids my kids are friends with or not. I may not see all my friends every day like I'd like, but I do think of them often and if they have a blog I do visit it as often as they update it. You know most of the time I blame the computer for putting off my cleaning and other chores, but if I didn't have it or the Internet how would I ever keep in touch with most of my friends????

Thursday, November 20, 2008

This is gonna sound bad, but....Grateful for alcohol

Yes I know it sounds so totally bad, but after the day I've had with my three it sure helps to take the edge off.

With dear sweet hubby having to be at work at midnight he's not awake at the witching hour to help with the kids while dinner is being made. Oh wait maybe I should rephrase that and say he's not awake to make dinner while I deal with the kids. ;) He's also not around to help me bathe them or get them to go to sleep. It's exhausting and I now know what single moms go through, bless their hearts.

So at night I've taken to having a Mike's Hard Lemonade with dinner to help make me relax a bit more so I'm not so on edge. I only have one and it's not enough to make me so tipsy I can't properly take care of my children, so they aren't in any danger.

If you think about it some people have a glass of wine with dinner, so a hard lemonade isn't too different, as it is alcohol too, just tastes better to me than wine does. I've never been a wine drinker, or a beer drinker for that matter. I like my alcohol to taste fruity. :)

So folks, I'm not taking the high road tonight in being grateful for something as sweet and nice as my sister or dreams, nope I'm just grateful that prohibition is no longer around and I can have a little something with dinner to help take the edge off.......

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Grateful for my sister

You know I went back and reread yesterdays grateful post and felt really bad. I read that I written that I couldn't think of anything to post about that I was grateful for and then I got an email from my sister and thought to myself, "How could I not post that I was grateful for her?? What kind of sister am I???"

So today's post is about the one person in the world who knows where I am coming from, literally and figuratively. If there's one person who can truly relate to what I've gone through in life it's her!!

Okay, I didn't always like her, for instance the time she called me a Homo Sapien and I thought she was calling another kind of homo.........I was in the third grade people!!! But after I graduated from high school we got real close and have been ever since.

Her and her family came out to visit this summer and the week went by WAY TOO FAST!!! We all had a ton of fun together, but I think my favorite time was when we did a Target run just the two of us. It was fun just hanging out without having to worry about kids or husbands. I had such a great time with all of them that I was in quite a funk for a while after they left.

But one thing that does help me not feel so far away is my daily emails to and from my sister and my mom. Monday through Friday we all email each other and talk about what's going on at our houses. It really does help me more connected to them. If my memory were better I could probably tell you what my sister's family had for dinner last week because we share that much in our emails. It's nice and I hope we never stop doing it. :)

So S, if you happen to be reading this please know that I am truly grateful to have had such a great sister and friend such as you!!! I miss you and love you tons and bunches!!! XOXOXOXO

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Grateful for hopes and dreams....

.....because if we didn't have those what would we have???

Seriously though, this morning I had a hard time thinking of something that I was grateful that I hadn't already posted about. But then this afternoon I got a new Woman's Day magazine and in the back were some simple inspiration quotes. One of these quotes touched me and then I realized what I should post about being grateful for. The quote in particular is such...
Hold fast to dreams
For if dreams die
Life is a broken-winged bird
That cannot fly
~Langston Hughes
It reminded me of something I always tell people who laugh at me and my fantastical dreams, be they day dreams or night time ones. I always say "Well if I can't dream what can I do?"
And I have lots of moving closer to family for instance.....winning the lottery is another.......having a reunion with some friends I recently reconnected with is a new one......and finally getting to meet my soul sister in South Carolina. Then of course what mother doesn't dream about their children growing up healthy and happy? Or who doesn't want their husband (or wife) to live a long and happy life with them?
But I guess my biggest dream is that when the time comes for me to go live with the angels that I've left this world a little bit better than it would have been if I hadn't been here at all. And that all the yelling I seem to do towards my children will be forgotten and they'll only remember the fun times we had.
So since dreams sometimes take a long time to come true....I'll just keep on dreaming so that my life doesn't become a broken-winged bird who cannot fly.

Monday, November 17, 2008

Grateful dear sweet hubby went grocery shopping with me

You know I used to enjoy grocery shopping, back when I actually did it in a grocery store that is. Now that I grocery shop at a Wal-Mart Supercenter, I don't enjoy it as much. First of all it kind of ticks me off that Wal-Mart has the best prices, as I'd rather avoid the place if at all possible, too many weirdos maybe. But when you're feeding a family of 5, with three of those being growing kids, how can you not shop there??? I go there so stinkin' much I feel like I'm becoming friends with some of the employees, geesh.

Now for as much shopping I do there, I will not buy meat there. With no on site butcher I'd rather buy my meat at a regular store where they package the meat up themselves. That means I usually make a special trip to Albertson's, the one real grocery store that has the best deals most of the time.

But back to my title, I was so grateful when dear sweet hubby said he'd go to Wal-Mart with me after dropping the girls off at school. It's nice to have company who can actually carry on a conversation, no offense Little Man! It's the one bonus to dear sweet hubby working this nasty midnight shift, he has Monday mornings off since he has to work Saturday mornings too.

Plus since the man loves to cook and can be real creative he tends to think of things to buy that I wouldn't. I usually stick to my list and that list usually contains a few standard meals, such as meatloaf, spaghetti, fish sticks......can you get the drift I'm not creative when it comes to cooking???

So since he went with we stocked up so I shouldn't have to make a trip back there for a while. Of course I did forget to get some diapers for Little Man at night (we're still working on day time potty training so he's nowhere near being potty trained for nighttime yet), but I think I may make a special trip to my mecca, Tar-Jay tomorrow morning when I'm child free to get those. Just don't think I can stomach Wally World (as dear sweet hubby calls it) two days in a row, especially since DSH won't be with me....

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Grateful my dear sweet hubby worked an early shift today....

.....because now he can cook and I don't have to! LOL Seriously the man loves to get real creative when he cooks and 98% of the time he's successful and it's quite tasty. He's had a few bombs but he always finishes what's leftover if the rest of us don't want to eat it anymore.

You see I am SO NOT creative when I cook. I can't wing it at all and when I try I fail e-v-e-r-y t-i-m-e!!!! It's not good.

So now that he's home in time for dinner he's got his thinking cap on and all I know is I don't have to try to come up with something. :)

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Grateful Aunt Flo is about to leave!

I tell ya, I'm not sure if it's because of me getting older or the kids getting older but it seems like sometimes Aunt Flo has some bad visits.

Now you may ask yourself who the heck Aunt Flo is, well think of that lovely thing women get each month that tend to make them a teeny tiny bit more sensitive and just a smidgen easier to make angry and you'll know who or what I am talking about.

I've tried explaining to the girls how there's a certain time each month that Mommy may be a bit more grouchy but they don't quite get it and I know for a fact that Little Man has no clue except maybe Mommy tends to yell a little bit more sometimes.

And who knows maybe if we were in a position where dear sweet hubby could be home on the weekends to help with the restless natives, as I like to call the kiddos sometimes, then maybe these visits wouldn't be so bad. But when you're the only one to deal with all the squabbling and hitting and outright fits, then it can exacerbate things.

But until then I just have to work my way through Aunt Flo's visits and hope for the best........ :s

Friday, November 14, 2008

Grateful tomorrow is Saturday

Since I haven't been sleeping that well lately and I wasn't able to sleep in past 6:30 last weekend (both days!!!), I am SOOOOOO looking forward to tomorrow being Saturday!!! I'm really hoping that the kids will allow me to sleep in some, otherwise they are going to be stuck inside all day with a VERY cranky mommy. Hmmmmm......maybe I should warn them of that prospect before bed tonight and see if they actually allow me to sleep in until oh say 7?!?!?!?!?!?!

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Greatful for actual seasons

You see where I grew up in Northern California there weren't actual seasons. Oh sure you could tell the difference between summer and winter, but in reality you could get nice days in both of those seasons. I mean I remember Christmas' where it was close to 70, which for winter is pretty darn nice, in my opinion. But you didn't really have the seasons like they show them on calendars and teach them in schools. But in Colorado you do!

It may be sunny here a lot but you know if it's winter, spring, summer or fall out.

Take today for instance, it's nice and sunny out but the wind is strong and it's very chilly in the morning and at night. Now it may be sunny and windy in the summer, but it's most definitely not chilly in the morning or night. And even if it's sunny on Christmas day, it's sure as heck not anywhere near 70 degrees.

I remember our first winter here and just being in total shock when I'd email my family in California to tell them it was -11 at night before bed!!! Or the time we drove home from Home Depot one Sunday afternoon and I called my sister to tell her our van was telling us it was 0 degrees outside!!! Yep, 0 degrees!!!

And then the spring, when everything starts to bloom and turn green again, I mean that's what they teach you spring is about. Out in California plants and flowers bloom, but once the weather heats up the grassy hills and mountains turn a golden color instead of green like here. My dear sweet hubby and I couldn't get over the fact everything was so green in the middle of summer here and so brown in the dead of winter. The exact opposite of what we grew up with.

So for someone who LOVES to rearrange her furniture every chance she gets, to be able to experience Mother Nature's rearranging on a pretty regular basis, I'm in Heaven!!! I always look forward to the next season and then right as the season is about to change again, I'm ready for the current season to end. Mother Nature must LOVE me! ;)

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Grateful we don't forget each other.....

...because with the stress of dear sweet hubby working two jobs, 6 days a week, and me staying home with the kids it would be pretty easy to lose each other. But either by luck or unconscious planning we seem to remember that we still have each other. We still find a way to reconnect with each other. We are best friends as well as husband and wife and I truly think that makes a huge difference.
Now this is not to say we never have tense moments or heated words, we do on occasion but they are few and far between. Plus I guess his nasty schedule of having to be at work at midnight and going to sleep around 1 in the afternoon helps us to not fight. But thankfully it doesn't prevent us from still showing our affection for one another.
So with all the craziness that is life at our house I am so extremely grateful that my husband and I are still madly in love with each other!

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Grateful my family is so easy to please!

Really I mean I couldn't have asked for a more low maintenance family. When I don't feel like cooking (which is really like every night, but I digress) and I suggest hot dogs and mac & cheese they all get excited even dear sweet hubby. Well okay maybe he doesn't get as excited as the kids but he doesn't pitch a fit either.

I could also never clean again and none of them would probably mind. Seriously unless the place really started to stink, I don't think they'd miss me not cleaning.

And who can't love a child who jumps up and down in joy knowing they got new socks or underwear??? Most kids would be like "eh, new underwear" but not my sweet Peaches, she seriously gets really excited about it and thanks me profusely. Maybe I should take that and run with it and only get the girl underwear and socks for Christmas, nah that'd be mean.

But when it comes down to it they may not demand much but I do still try to do everything I can for them. My only real goal in life is to make sure they are all healthy, happy and well fed and if that means pleasing them with a simple meal of hot dogs and mac & cheese, who am I to deny them that joy????? ;)

Monday, November 10, 2008

Grateful for being agile enough to jump the fence, but....

.....not so grateful that my pants caught on the wire mesh tearing a HUGE hole in the pants and leaving a nice 2 inch gash in my rear!!!!

Okay so I know I didn't post yesterday but I have a good excuse! Yesterday afternoon I was talking with a neighbor in the open space between our yards while our kids played. Then it was time to go in and all the kids scaled the fence, so not wanting to let the dog out and trying to prove I'm not that old after all, I decided to scale the fence too.

That's where I got myself into trouble.....

You see I climbed up it okay, as it's probably about 4 feet tall, but it was jumping down that I got bit by the fence. It's an open rail fence so there is a wire mesh covering it so animals and children don't escape. I call the wire mesh chicken wire but it's more rigid and goes vertically and horizontally instead of diagonal like a true chicken wire. Anyway, there was a rouge wire at the top of the fence that caught on my back pocket and riped the entire back side of my pants. Seriously this tear is probably a good foot in length!!! It zig zags but if you add up the whole tear in length, it'd be a foot for sure. Then I realized I was not only showing a half moon but I was injured too. I got inside and saw a lovely 2 inch gash in my upper thigh. Oh what fun!!! Thankfully we had a bandage big enough for the entire gash, but dang if it doesn't hurt!!! The only thing I could sit on last night was something soft and since we have a wooden chair at our computer desk and I have no lap top, no grateful post yesterday.

So today I'm posting that while I'm grateful I'm not too old to scale a fence I just wish I had been a bit better on the dismount. And while I've been in almost constant paint because of the gash, I think I'm more bummed about tearing my pants!! They were my favorites and fit so nicely. It's such a big tear and it's right there on the whole left side, so it wouldn't look too good to try to patch it up or sew it back together. UGH!!! And while I do enjoy shopping for new clothes, jeans are not one of my favorite things to go buy. It never fails, if the length is right the rise is wrong, or if the rise is right then the length is wrong, plus they never seem to have my size in the shade I like either. Why oh why did I have to prove I could still scale a fence?????

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Grateful for caffeine....

......or more specifically coffee!!!

You see I went to bed late last night, was reading a good book and then this morning at 5:30 something my sweet Tinkerbell entered my room and announced "I can't sleep". Geesh, well I was doing pretty good but I guess that was now over. So we snuggled and giggled then Little Man joined in at about 6:30 and it got a little bit more rowdy. Then right around 7 Peaches joined as Tink had left the door to their bedroom open and Einstein, one of our two 13 year old cats, climbed into her bed and woke her up. Then dear sweet hubby came home from work (he had to go in at midnight) and he wanted to take a short nap before going into his second job. So we cleared the room.

But now I'm pooped and it's only 10:30 AM!!!! So for this moment in time I am grateful that I've started drinking coffee and that I have some to consume. Even after one cup I'm still dragging and my head hurts, so I'm thinking a second cup is in order. I may need more than one more though, as I did have plans to whip my house into shape. It's looking better than it has in days but I need to mop the kitchen floor BAD and I should try to get the laundry all done and put away. But if I don't get some energy soon I may not get squat done and that wouldn't be good. I hate being lazy but even more so knowing that my dear sweet hubby is out there working two jobs to provide for us.

So time to start drinking some more coffee and get that sweet sweet caffeine pumping through my system!!!!

Friday, November 7, 2008

Grateful for cheaper gas

Man oh man, this morning it was so nice to hear the click of the gas pump shutting off when the total only said $30!!!! And that was for an almost full tank of gas!!!! It was so beautiful I darn near cried. Seriously people, the price of gas in the past year has gotten so out of hand there was a time when I wondered if I could put all three of the kids in the bike trailer we used to have and take them to school that way. At one point it cost over $65 to fill up my little 15 gallon tank. That time I almost cried too, but they weren't tears of joy.

Now I don't know what is causing the price of gasoline to go down but I am grateful for whatever it is. I'm still going to drive like a granny in order make sure my gas lasts as long as possible, but now when I want to make the trip to the very south end of town to go the new Super Target it won't be the financial burden just to drive there like it used to be....:)

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Grateful for time

Specifically the time to spend with my children. It's a sacrifice financially but dear sweet hubby and I made the decision before Peaches came along that we wanted me to stay home with our children until they were all in school all day, as both of our mothers did that and we felt that benefited us. Now granted there are days when I'd much rather be working, not only to have that extra money, but also to just get away from the trying days with all three at home, especially during the summer. But looking at the big picture, I wouldn't have it any other way.

Now what got me to thinking about this as my grateful post for today was the fact that I volunteered at the girls' school today. It's sad to say but you can pretty much pick out the kids whose parents take the time to spend with them and the parents who don't or can't because they work too much. I've noticed a lot of the kids who parents don't spend much time with them, for whatever reason, seem to be slightly behind their peers as far as academics go. And I've noticed this most with Peaches' class. It's her third year with these students and I've gotten to know some. So I know which ones have moms who stay home and which ones don't, and unfortunately it's the ones who don't who seem to be behind their peers. It breaks my heart and just makes me want to go in and volunteer as much as I can so I can help them. I absolutely love to help them learn stuff and then congratulate them when they get the answer right or read a sentence correctly. I love seeing their smiles when they realize they've done it right. All of this has just reinforced the idea of my getting a job at the elementary school once Little Man is in school all day, as not only would I have summers off with the kids, but I'd get to see more smiles on the students faces.

So it all comes down to the fact that I am so grateful that I get to be one of those moms who can stay home with her kids and maybe help them get a leg up. I don't always have the time to sit down with each one individually and work with them on one subject or another, but I can help feed their desire to learn and do better. I've started reading books for myself again and I think that them seeing me sitting down to read for fun has helped feed their love for books. And when I read to them and we have a book that we learn something from, I think my excitement at learning something new helps feed their love of learning something new.

And who knows maybe I'd be able to do that even if I did work full time outside of the home, but I'd like to think that my ability to stay home with them just helps me do it a little bit more.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Grateful for my mommy

As I clean up the results of the stomach virus that is attacking more members of my family, I can't help but think of my mother. I know that may sound like an odd association, vomit with your mother, but as I clean up after my family I can't help but think of all the times my mother had to clean up after me and my sister. I can't tell you how many times she would stand behind me as I made an offering to the porcelain gods holding my long hair back so it didn't get in the way. Or how many times I heard her say "It's okay" as she was cleaning up. It's that loving attention that, while all mothers should, the best mothers give their children in times like this. And I learned from the best!!! I seriously think there isn't anything my mom can't do. Well okay I could think of a few, bench pressing 200 lbs or break dancing come to mind, but I digress.....She can cook anything from memory, she can wallpaper like a pro, faux paint better than any art major I've seen, sew custom drapes using just measurements and being no where near the actual window and she can manage to make almost 2,000 of miles between us seem like nothing with a simple "I love you".

So in case you haven't been able to guess already, today's grateful post is about my mother. Life hasn't always been the easiest for her and still she goes about her life with a positive attitude, learning from the troubles of the past and making sure she avoids them in the future. I can only hope that one day my children will feel the same admiration for me that I feel immensely for my mother....

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

She's a maniac....a maniac with a sewing machine...

Okay that didn't sound as good as I thought it would. Think of the "Maniac" song from "Flashdance" when you read the title......see told you it didn't sound as good as I thought it would. Anyway, here are some of my sewing projects I have done with my recently acquired sewing machine (THANK YOU MOM!!!)

First off I made myself 7 new fabric grocery bags. Three of them are huge and look like this:
The other two are a bit smaller, but you don't get wide fabric when you buy from the $1 section at Wal-Mart. So I got two of each fabric.
Then here are the two sheets that I am using to make duvet covers for the girls' comforters. I got one done but then I got sick with my cold and have been sick for the past month, so the second one will happen here soon.Aren't these fabrics too cute???
I love the pink and brown combo, plus the polka dot sheet reminds me of neopolitan ice cream, yum yum.

Grateful for Democracy

Yes, folks here I am again with another one of my grateful posts and today it's all about the fact that we live in a democracy where we all have the RIGHT to vote for our president. Now I don't care who you vote for, (Okay maybe I do care a little as the picture down a little bit on the right will attest to), but I do care that you vote. People, we have something millions of other people on this Earth don't have and that is the ability to express our opinions on who should be running our country. And I'm so grateful we do.

Now very late tonight or more likely early tomorrow morning we will know which team will be making history. Because either way, whether McCain wins or Obama, history will be made. It will be the first time ever that an African-American has been elected president or a female has been elected vice-president.

So when you are standing in a long line waiting your turn to say who you want as president, remember how extremely lucky you are to be able to do so.

Monday, November 3, 2008

Grateful, even if I'm not feeling so hot...

Last night the girls and I came down with some sort of stomach virus which the males in our family seemed to have escaped. We spent the whole day downstairs curled up watching cartoons. I'm a bit better now but sure am looking forward to crawling into bed for some precious sleep and hopefully waking up feeling much better.

But I wanted to make sure I stuck to my promise of posting each day about something I'm grateful for, so now for today's entry......

I am SO grateful for having a roof over my head and a nice bed to sleep in at night. I think that is something we can all take for granted on a daily basis, well until you get sick at least. I mean being sick is the pits but can you imagine how much worse it would be if you had no home to stay at or nice bed to sleep in???

Now originally that was going to be my only entry for today but I just finished the sweetest, most loving book called "Gracie: A Love Story" by George Burns about his wife Gracie Allen. The book ends when Gracie passes away from Angina, which made me cry. Just from reading that book you could tell that he loved Gracie so very much, and she loved him just as much. But that got me to thinking how grateful I am that I know how to read. Again it's something people can take for granted, but again there are many out there who don't know how to read so they can't enjoy such a lovingly written story just like the one I just finished.

Anyway, I'm gonna hobble downstairs and make some chicken noodle soup for those who feel as though they can keep it down. So if you are reading this and are feeling healthy right now, just take a moment and be grateful for not being sick, for me, please?!?!

Sunday, November 2, 2008


I've decided to try and post daily this month with at least one thing I am grateful for. I know, I know, I didn't post yesterday, so to make up for that I'll post two things today. But I thought with this being the month of Thanksgiving I was going to focus on all the good things I have in my life. So without further adieu here are two things I am grateful for:

#1: My Dear Sweet Hubby, he works so hard to provide for our family and he's so talented in so many ways, that he never ceases to amaze me. I'd be totally lost without him beside me and I love him with all my heart.

#2: My three beautiful and healthy children, granted they drive me insane some days and the can fight worse than cats and dogs, but they are each totally unique in their personalities and I think I'd be even more insane without them. At night before I go to bed, I'll sometimes just peek in their rooms and watch them sleep, especially if it was a trying day for all of us. I just to love them sleeping and feeling the comfort that they are all happy and healthy.

So from here on out I will post one thing a day that I am grateful for and they won't be in any particular order. I may also post other things that are on my mind or that I feel like sharing but it won't be replacing my grateful post. In these hard times, financially, I think it's important to remember all that we do have and be grateful for them here and now and instead of after they are gone and it's too late.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

I must let my kids dress themselves.... I MUST let my kids dress themselves.... I....MUST.....LET.....MY.....KIDS......DRESS......THEMSELVES

Seriously for me one of the hardest things about being a mother is letting my children dress themselves. No, no, no I'm not talking about them putting their own clothes on themselves, I'm talking about picking out their outfits BY THEMSELVES!!!

For someone who, regrettably, has spent 99.9% of her life caring what other people thought about what she wears, allowing my children to match up their own outfits is darn right terrifying!!

Tink is probably the worst one when it comes to being able to actually get her outfit to match. It's her belief that if the shirt and the pants both have flowers on them, then they match. Never mind the fact that one has small pink flowers and the other has a rainbow of large flowers, they match in her eyes. Plus she HAS to pair her outfit with her favorite froggy rain boots. Because everyone knows that a bright green pair of froggy rain boots goes with everything, right???

Peaches is a bit better, but when she wants to look pretty she always wears her "Dorothy" shoes, you know the ones that are red and sparkly. For example this morning she wore a pink sundress with a long sleeved white t-shirt under it, but she wanted to wear her "Dorothy" shoes and they hurt if she wears them without socks, so she put on a pair of sweat socks. UGH! I couldn't do it people, I just couldn't do it. I had to say something, so I told her she either had to change her shoes or her socks, as that just didn't look right. So what does she do???? She gets a pair of tights that have a white background and multi colored dots on them, including a pink that went with her dress. Again I felt the urge to say something but held back. I just sighed and said, okay.

Little Man, well he's only 3 1/2 so he can't be expected to really match up his shirts and pants, but he actually does a pretty good job. HOWEVER, for a boy he changes his outfit more times in one day then his dad does in a week!!! Well okay, he probably doesn't change his outfit more than 7 times a day, but he does change it a lot. If he gets his shirt the slightest bit wet he has to change it, even though I keep telling him that it will dry. Needless to say I do a lot more of his laundry than anyone else's. And I'm actually considering locking his clothes up so he can't just change them when the whim hits him.

Now back to letting them pick out their own outfits......what do you other moms do? Do you allow them free choice when it comes to getting dressed? Or do you pick out certain outfits and let them choose between them? You see I always make sure they are dressed appropriately for the weather, but after pulling out 5 outfit choices for Tink and having her turn them all down, I just leave the room and hope, against all hope, that she comes out of her room with something that doesn't look like she just left her act as a circus clown......

Tuesday, October 28, 2008


Do we have them when our children are concerned???

For any parent of more than one child I know there have probably been times when you "like" one child better than the others ('cause we all know we love all our children the same amount). But in all honesty is it that we "like" them better at that moment or are we just having a special connection at that moment with that particular child???

What got me to thinking about this? Well last night after I put the kids to bed I went downstairs to finish the last 20 pages of my book on the Lizzie Borden murders (She didn't do it, if you were wondering) when Little Man came down saying "I wanna snuggle witch you". So, I said okay thinking that if I just sat and continued to read silently to myself (I wasn't going to read to him from that book) while he sat in my lap he'd either get bored and go back to bed or he'd fall asleep with the rocking of the chair I was in. Well he did get bored, so I took him back upstairs and decided to watch Dancing With The Stars as I was done with my book. Well lo and behold he came downstairs again saying again "I wanna snuggle witch you". So again I let him. I'm not sure why I did this time, as it was close to 9, WAY past his bedtime, but I did. Anyway I rocked away as I watch DWTS and sure as shootin' he fell asleep. I took him upstairs at almost 10 and finished watching my show before heading to bed myself.

But it was on one of my trips upstairs with him that I wondered to myself, did I let him stay up later and snuggle with me because he was my favorite or because he was my baby, or maybe it was just because it was a special moment for the two of us to share??? I still don't know the answer to those questions and I wonder if I ever will.

Part of me thinks it is because he's my "Little Man" and I've always wanted a son, I mean I wanted daughters too but there was just something about the idea of having a son to adore me that I've always longed for.

Then another part of me thinks it's because he's the youngest and therefore my baby. Maybe I tend to baby him more because there isn't another one younger than him that needs more taking care of.

Of course there is also the possibility that it was just a special moment for us to share and one I'll always treasure. I mean my Dear Sweet Hubby was snoring away and the dog isn't much company when he's snoring too. So the idea of having some company to snuggle with was appealing. But would I have done the same if it had been Peaches or Tink who came downstairs saying they wanted to snuggle with me???

I'd like to think that I would have done it no matter who it was (although Peaches is getting a tad bit too big to share the recliner with me these days), but I guess the only way I'll know for sure is if one night while I'm alone sitting downstairs reading one of the girls comes downstairs and says "I wanna snuggle witch you". :)

Monday, October 27, 2008

Memory, oh memory, how I miss thee!!!

You know the other day I had a ton of ideas of what to write in my blog and I should have written them down on a note pad but I didn't and now when I have the time to sit down and write I can't remember a single idea. Geesh, I miss my memory as it was such a nice thing to have. I can distinctly remember my mother telling me that after the second pregnancy "Pregnant Brain" sticks, so I can only assume that if you have more than two kids you are just basically doomed. ;) Huh, I can remember her saying that to me over 5 years ago but I can't remember things I thought of two days ago????? Oh man it stinks to get older.....:(

Saturday, October 25, 2008

I hope I never do #46, but I have done #7 about 20 some odd times :)

I got this idea of my friend's blog and it was fun. But I now know that I seriously need to try and check more off of this list. I haven't done as many as I would have liked to....
1. Started your own blog 2. Slept under the stars 3. Played in a band 4. Visited Hawaii 5. Watched a meteor shower 6. Given more than you can afford to charity 7. Been to Disneyland 8. Climbed a mountain 9. Held a praying mantis 10. Sang a solo 11. Bungee jumped 12. Visited Paris 13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch 15. Adopted a child 16. Had food poisoning 17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty 18. Grown your own vegetables 19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France 20. Slept on an overnight train 21. Had a pillow fight 22. Hitch hiked 23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill 24. Built a snow fort 25. Held a lamb 26. Gone skinny dipping 27. Run a Marathon 28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice 29. Seen a total eclipse 30. Watched a sunrise or sunset 31. Hit a home run 32. Been on a cruise 33. Seen Niagara Falls in person 34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors 35. Seen an Amish community 36. Taught yourself a new language 37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied 38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person 39. Gone rock climbing 40. Seen Michelangelo’s David 41. Sung karaoke 42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt 43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant 44. Visited Africa 45. Walked on a beach by moonlight 46. Been transported in an ambulance 47. Had your portrait painted (do self portraits count???) 48. Gone deep sea fishing 49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person 50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris 51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling 52. Kissed in the rain 53. Played in the mud 54. Gone to a drive-in theater 55. Been in a movie 56. Visited the Great Wall of China 57. Started a business 58. Taken a martial arts class 59. Visited Russia 60. Served at a soup kitchen 61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies62. Gone whale watching 63. Got flowers for no reason 64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma 65. Gone sky diving 66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp 67. Bounced a check 68. Flown in a helicopter 69. Saved a favorite childhood toy 70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial 71. Eaten Caviar 72. Pieced a quilt 73. Stood in Times Square 74. Toured the Everglades 75. Been fired from a job 76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London 77. Broken a bone 78. Been on a speeding motorcycle 79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person 80. Published a book 81. Visited the Vatican 82. Bought a brand new car 83. Walked in Jerusalem 84. Had your picture in the newspaper 85. Read the entire Bible 86. Visited the White House 87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating (we can count fish right???)88. Had chickenpox 89. Saved someone’s life 90. Sat on a jury 91. Met someone famous 92. Joined a book club 93. Lost a loved one 94. Had a baby 95. Seen the Alamo in person 96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake 97. Been involved in a law suit 98. Owned a cell phone 99. Been stung by a bee 100. Talked your way out of a ticket
If you want to do this too, just copy and paste into your own blog and put all the ones you've done in bold print. :)

Friday, October 24, 2008

Now Showing: Return to the Land of the Living

Yes folks, I feel that today I have finally returned to the land of the living. Geesh it has only taken me 10 days to get here, but I'm here. Granted I still hack like I've been smoking for the past 30 years, at least two packs a day, and my voice is not back to normal, but I no longer feel like I'm in some energy sucking fog. You know this has been the strangest cold (if that's what it is) I've ever had. I'll explain.......

It all started on Tuesday the 14th. I was child free and went to a baby shower for a dear friend of mine who is brave enough to have her 4th child on purpose (love ya Toni). Well during the course of the shower I felt my throat get soar and my voice started to go all wonky on me. These are always the first signs of a cold, so I knew what was coming. By that evening I had no voice to speak of, literally, and I had to whisper everything to the kiddos. The voice continued to elude me for the next few days and the congestion got a little worse. But then on Saturday I felt good enough to paint the room we had been using as a guest room in order to move Little Man back in there. You see three kids in a small bedroom is not a good idea. Now if the room was much bigger it would be do-able, but not in the size room we have. Anyway, I painted on Saturday and then moved his furniture in there on Sunday. So I must have felt somewhat normal, even if I was popping Dayquil like it was candy.

Then came Monday....

Monday everything got worse again. It was almost as if my body was saying to me "Yo, woman, SLOW DOWN!!!" Everything started going into the toilet again, but it wasn't as bad as it got on Tuesday....

Tuesday afternoon I started to feel like I had that achy flu (not the toss your cookies kind) and I could barely move at all. I absolutely dreaded going to pick Peaches from school, as that meant I had to actually move! Wednesday morning I was a little bit better but not much, but OH! then came Wednesday afternoon....

Wednesday afternoon I no longer felt like I had the flu but dang it felt like someone had put 1 ton bricks on my cheek bones. I knew this meant I was having sinus pressure and wondered if I had a sinus infection. That whole night I was just hoping that someone would just knock me out as then I wouldn't feel the pressure anymore. Thank Heavens for Nyquil!!!

Thursday morning I no longer had that sinus pressure, thank goodness, but I still felt like something you find on the bottom of your shoe. Shortly before dinner I did begin to feel somewhat normal and actually did the dishes!!! First time in oh about 4 days, it was bad!

Then this morning, besides hacking up a million loogeys in the shower, I'm feeling somewhat normal!!! I no longer resemble a cast member of one of those "Night of the Living Dead" movies. I'm still congested and I still hack, which by the way is really starting to hurt, and my throat is still sore, but like I said earlier I no longer feel like I'm in that energy sucking fog.

Now while I was lying on the couch trying to conserve enough energy to pick up one kid or another, I came up with an acronym. Bare with me, it's a bit of a stretch but it what I think the word MOTHER should stand for:
M ade
O f
T he
H ardiest
E -mmune system
'R ound
Now I realize that the word immune doesn't start with an E but that's what I had to work with people. I truly think that once you've either given birth or adopted a baby you should automatically get an immune system that can fight off any and all germs and virus'. I mean it's not easy and it really stinks to be a mother when you are sick yourself and have no one to take over for you. Thankfully the kiddos are all old enough that they can do most things for themselves, but then again there's Little Man who thinks he's old enough to do lots of things and Heaven knows he isn't, which is oh so scary......even scarier than one of those "Night of the Living Dead" movies!!!

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

I just have one thing to say.....

More another day when I feel better..............

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

My house has a bad case of C.H.A.O.S!!!

Now you're probably wondering what C.H.A.O.S. is, well I'll tell ya: It stands for
C an't
H ave
A nyone
O ver
S yndrome
Pretty cool acronym, huh? I found it on a cleaning website that I didn't have time to really check out. Of course you'd think since I didn't have time to check it out I would have been cleaning, but if I was it sure doesn't look like it.

It's hard being the sole person out of a family of 5 who cleans up. Granted the other adult in the family works two jobs so he has like no free time to help clean up, but the kids are 3, 5, & 7 so they should be able to help pick up after themselves. Notice I said "should"???? So I've come up with a plan, if it isn't cleaned up before bedtime it goes in the trash, if it's left out in the backyard and doesn't belong there it goes in the trash and since I've moved Little Man back into his own bedroom again, what toys don't fit into their room gets donated! I'm so tired of having toys all over the floor, so I'm gonna have to institute some strict rules about those lovely things.

Now I know some of you are probably shaking your heads and thinking "Is this woman for real? She's got three kids under the age of 8 and she can't stand toys all over?" Well yes, and with our kids getting older, which in reality means bigger and no chance of us moving into a bigger house anytime soon, I have to nip this in the bud while I can. 99% of the time the kids don't even play with most of their toys, they're too busy making games up with their imagination. So why do we need all these toys all over the place if they aren't getting played with? Shouldn't they go to a child who would actually love and use them? I think so.

Plus it's so dang embarrassing to say you can't have people over because your house is a disaster area. I hate opening my door as the house is such a disaster, even looking in from the front door. I feel like the world's worst housekeeper. I could understand the state of our house if I worked full time but since I don't I would think I'd have a chance to keep it cleaner, but apparently not.

Of course the cold I've had for the past week and a half hasn't helped matters. It's hard to get a good cleaning done when you start hacking up a lung or two 5 minutes after you get going! Earlier I was cleaning up the loft by putting the toys that were in here into the kids' rooms, but starting hacking so thought I'd sit down at the computer for a bit. (All the kids are in school this morning, so I have the ability to do this now)

It probably doesn't help that my dear sweet hubby and I are pack rats that are trying to reform themselves by purging. I mean the kids just learned their hoarding tendencies from us, but recently my DSH and I have decided we can't and don't need to save ALL the crap we have. I've been trying real hard to go through stuff, but it isn't easy when dear sweet hubby isn't home to help me determine if something needs to be saved. But hopefully in the near future he will stop working this blasted night shift and get back to his normal work hours so we can try to go through boxes at night after the kids are in bed. Again, notice I said "try" and not "will", as after three kids I've learned to never commit myself to anything but taking life one day at a time.....

Monday, October 20, 2008

Sometimes I hate the written word

I know, I know, for someone who seems to write a lot on her blog how can I hate the written word??? Well I'll tell ya, because sometimes it can be taken the wrong way and people's feelings can get hurt. Far too often in the past I've written something to someone and it's come out all wrong. I could have been hurt when I wrote it but it came across as being mean and snotty.

But that's not the exact reason for this post....

The real reason is based on a message board I've belonged to for a while. It all started in the summer when something was written out of general cuiosity and several people took it the wrong way. Well ever since then there has been an unspoken divide on this board, where everyone used to consider everyone else extended family they've never met. And it was after all this occurred that I stopped going there so often. I'm still in contact with some of my favorite people from that board and I don't plan to ever stop, but again there's been some disagreement over the written word that has been blown WAY out of proportion. So much so that my own mother, who is a member, has had her feelings hurt enough to stop going to this message board altogether. The worst part is that she's the one that told me all about how great a place this was. And to be quite frank it was a great place but now, not so much.

(OMG I just found where the kids hid our old fly swatter, but I digress)

So back to what I was writing, if some how some way we could write something and make sure that the people reading it take it as it's meant to be taken then I'd have no problem with the written word. But since people have minds of their own it's impossible to make sure that everyone reads what you've written in the manner it's meant.

So with all that said, I hope with all that I am and ever will be, that I never write anything in this blog that may offend, hurt, anger or cause emotional harm to anyone reading it. This blog is just meant to be an open diary for me to express my feelings instead of bottling them in. So while you read this just keep telling yourself that the following is just the opinions of a slightly crazy woman in Colorado....;)