Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Reflections....

....of a year gone and a year yet to start.

2008....what can I say about this year? Well it's been a pretty good one. I've reconnected with some long lost friends. All three kids are doing fantastic in school and I get to go in and volunteer at the girls' school once a week.

Granted I did have some health issues (I'm having gallbladder removal surgery on the 12th) but it's nothing that is life threatening. We also had some financial issues that we are now past and determined to never fall back into.

But overall we had a good year. Our family all came out to visit us (um Papa John the kids still ask to see you ;) ) and we had a great time with all of you.

Now for 2009!

We are hoping to make 2009 as good a year, if not better than 2008. Hopefully this summer we can make the journey out to California for a visit. In the fall both girls will be in school all day, cutting down my time spent in my vehicle driving them to and from school. Then Little Man will be in school three mornings a week giving me even more time to myself!!! What will I do??? Probably volunteer in the girls' school more, LOL.

Peaches will turn 8, Tink will be 6 and my Little Man will be 4 (the age Peaches was when Little Man was born, scary). Dear Sweet Hubby and I will celebrate 12 years of wedded bliss in July!

But as I think of all that I know will happen in 2009 I have to wonder about all those unknowns that are bound to happen......will the year bring us a transfer away from our beloved Colorado? Will our ship finally come in and we finally win the lottery??? (oh please oh please oh please!!!) And then there is the dreaded thoughts about what bad things might occur. I try not to dwell on those, as really if they are going to happen most of the time there's nothing you can do about them. Yes you can live your life carefully so that you don't cause any of them to happen but there are outside forces out there that you can't control. So let's not think about that.....

So as 2009 gets ready to start I'm going to start it with a positive attitude and the determination to not only organize and purge my house, but also to soak in every moment with my husband and children, well the positive ones at least.....;)

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

It's just the five of us now...

...My in-laws just left like maybe 5 minutes ago and now it's just the five of us here in the house. Dear sweet hubby doesn't have to go into work until this afternoon, which is nice but then again I was hoping to get started on taking down Christmas and doing a good cleaning like I do every year when I take down Christmas. But I guess that will have to wait until after he leaves for work. You see I've come the conclusion no good cleaning can be done while the man is home. I can't exactly pinpoint why, but it's always been the case, especially since the kiddos have come along.

We had a good visit with the in-laws. The kids always enjoy having them around to show things to. I think in the first 10 minutes they were here Tink showed them every new Christmas decoration we had. Plus my MIL taught Peaches to crochet and me to knit, so it was a productive visit as well. Peaches says she'll teach me to crochet if I teach her to knit. It will be interesting to see how well she can teach me to crochet, considering she's only almost 8.

So now that the holiday is over it is time to not only take down the Christmas decorations but also time to plan my big project 2009......FINALLY PURGING THE HOUSE OF ALL UNNEEDED ITEMS!!!!!!!!!!! This is the year that I'm going to reclaim my house and hopefully have less crap laying around. Now let's see if I can actually accomplish it.

Friday, December 26, 2008

Real quick

It's a sort of chaos here with all the new games and crafty stuff the kids got and then when you add Grandma and Grandpa visiting, the chaos amps up a bit. But I had a few minutes to play on my blog so I thought I'd get festive for the new year.

I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and that the New Year brings you nothing but health, happiness and the joy that is having family around you!

Now time to return to the chaos and possibly save my in-laws from the overwhelming force that is my children........

Monday, December 22, 2008

Merry Christmas to all!!!

Well the house is clean and I just finished mopping the downstairs, so it's time to rest a little. I still need to make the bed my in-laws will be sleeping in but that should be easy. So while I have this moment of rest I thought I'd wish all my readers (wow that sounds so professional, to have readers, LOL) a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! Knowing that there are people out there who actually like what I have to say and don't tune me out like my dear sweet hubby foolishly once admitted to doing on occasion, makes me feel kind of important in a way.

Anyway, I hope you and your families have an absolutely wonderful holiday and get all that you were hoping for. Because I'm sure you all deserve it, right?

Well time to get going again and make that bed before I lose all oomph and fall asleep right here in this chair.

So until I post again, which should be before the end of the year............HAVE A BLESSED CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Half way there...

Well the upstairs is done but let's see if the kiddos can keep it as clean as it is now. I just have to do the downstairs now. Then of course there will be a last minute vacuum everywhere I can as the dog is shedding something awful these days. Dear sweet hubby and I joked about making his parents a gift basket that had two lint brushes and two spray bottles with water in them. You see we use a spray bottle with water to get the dog to stop doing things. It works so much better than just saying no. Now all we need to do is show the dog the spray bottle and he stops. Soooo I figure if my in-laws both have spray bottles the dog will be sure to leave them alone.

Now I guess I should feed the kiddos and myself before attempting to clean the downstairs. I'm gonna need the energy from eating lunch as the upstairs really pooped me out.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Sitting here working up the energy to....

....clean my house top to bottom.

The in-laws arrive on Monday and I gotta get this house into shape. Now don't get me wrong I'm not doing it because they are picky or hard to impress, but rather because it gives me an excuse to get my butt in gear and do it.

Usually I just do the daily cleaning of dishes, laundry, vacuuming, sweeping, wiping down dirty spots on walls and windows. But the "clean it so it looks like it's for sale" cleaning doesn't happen unless I have company coming over. So I actually like having company so I have to do a better job.

I know what you are probably thinking, "Why doesn't she just try to keep it looking really good all the time? Then she wouldn't have to kill herself cleaning it for company!" Well I do try but when you have 4 people and a dog, who sheds like he can't get rid of the extra hair fast enough, working against you it's a bit hard to keep up. I can't be cleaning 24/7 which is probably what I'd have to do if I were to keep it company clean all the time.

I keep thinking that if we had a bigger house and more storage (this house has so little really) that it would be so much easier but somehow some way I don't think that would be the case. I tend to get this inkling that maybe just maybe it would be just as bad, we'd just have more space to spread the "stuff" around........

So until I can finally find out if a bigger house would help or not, I have to clean the house I have now. So time to go get some liquid energy (aka coffee) and get going. Of course the most fun part about all this is I have to get my kiddos to help out too........I may need LOTS of coffee for that....................

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Teacher gifts....oh the agony

I don't mean that I don't like giving them, as I am so grateful for each of my children's teachers. Instead the agony I have is over what to give them for Christmas. I mean I already struggle with the end of year gifts, as I know all too well from my mother-in-law, who is a retired teacher, about how teachers can accumulate a ton of stuff that they don't have the space to store. So I try to pick things that they can use once and be done with or don't have to store, like flowers.
But for a Christmas gift, what do you give??? Do you give as much of a gift as you give for the end of year present? And how much do you spend??? I have three kids so whatever I spend on one teacher I'm gonna have to spend on all three teachers, so that can add up!

You see I wasn't really planning on doing anything for any teacher other than my favorite teacher, Miss Elaine (aka the world's best pre-school teacher EVER), but then my girls noticed I was making cookies to give to Miss Elaine and they wanted to give their teachers cookies too. And then my friend Ingrid called me to get my opinion on a teacher gift and that got me to thinking about it all. I mean how much do you mothers reading this spend??? Do you go all out on the gifts or do you just skip the Christmas gift and do just an end of the year gift???

I mean I don't want to go in the poor house just trying to give my children's teachers gifts but I don't want to seem like a cheapskate either. I know most teachers would probably just prefer a nice thank you, but what are you to do when your kid wants to give their teacher a gift???

I dunno, it all seems like one more thing to fret and worry about. Like I really need another thing to fret and worry about!!!

Monday, December 15, 2008

Baby it's frigid outside....

....notice I didn't say cold? Well that's because it's not just cold it's frigid. I think when your high for the day is like maybe 2 degrees frigid works as a better description of the day than cold. Cold is like 30's or maybe 40's. However we got nowhere near that today. I mean this morning when I woke and went to check the temp on the computer it said it was -17!!!! Yes I did just type -17 and no that wasn't a typo.

I wish it was though....

I mean I love snow, love it, it's so much prettier than rain. Nothing looks more beautiful than a city dusted in snow. Especially those bare trees with the snow clinging to the branches for dear life.

But the super cold temps I can't stand. It's not only inhumane but it makes it darn near impossible for me to breathe. Being an asthmatic the extremely cold air does a number on me and I have to wear a scarf just so I can breathe through it.

Right now as I type it's apparently -4 outside. Tomorrow we warm up to a nice 15 degrees and then on Friday we'll be ready for flip flops as it will be a toasty 30 for a high. ;) But in the next 10 days we won't get any warmer than 30 degrees, so the snow we got on Saturday night won't be going anywhere any time soon. Plus they are calling for more snow in the next ten days so we'll have the white Christmas I requested in honor of my in-laws visit next week. But somehow I don't think they'll enjoy the frigid temps as much........

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Waking up with a headache can ruin your whole day

and I really hate that!

I mean I made sure I had my cup of coffee, or two, this morning and took some Tylenol with my breakfast but yet this blasted headache has persisted and only faded for short periods of time causing my whole day to have a sort of icky feel to it.

I mean I did get Little Man's room clean and with a little, actually A LOT of persuasion I got the girls to clean their room. And I also finished up some window treatments for Little Man's room, just need to get the curtain rod to hang them now. However it doesn't feel like such a good day since this headache keeps coming and going.

Of course maybe the fact I slept horribly last night has something to do with it. Little Man had a hard time sleeping which meant I had a hard time sleeping.

First he came into our room but then couldn't get comfortable, squirming all over the place and being fussy. So I took him back to bed, where he started to cry and fuss as soon as I left the room. Now mind you he's 3 1/2 but even though most people associate the word fussy with babies, this little boy was as fussy as they come. So then he came back into bed with me but dear sweet hubby was snoring at that point so Little Man was laying there with his fingers in his ears and grumbling about how noisy daddy was. So finally I took him back to bed and stayed with him until he fell back asleep.

This whole saga started around 1 am and ended around 3 am, so there's two hours lost out of my night's sleep. I went to bed around 10:45 and ended up waking up around 7:30 when Little Man once again entered my room. So let's see that's about 2 hours and 15 minutes the first go round and then 4 and a half hours the second go round. Total about 6 hours and 45 minutes but that wasn't continuous so it makes for horrible quality of sleep.

You know I'm thanking my lucky stars that dear sweet hubby has tomorrow off and there's no school because that means no alarm and hopefully a lazy morning, but somehow I doubt that....... ;)

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Been a little preoccupied

With dear sweet hubby working the day shift again, finally, I've been a bit busy the past few nights enjoying his company. But tonight he's gone to bed early as his system is still trying to get used to being up during the day and asleep at night. So now I have time to sit on the computer and blog. I really wish we had a lap top so I could sit downstairs with him at night and still do stuff on the computer, but no lap top here, so that dream will have to wait a bit.

Plus I've been kind of lacking in anything worth while to blog about. I've been really pooped lately and I recently heard that it could be due to the gallstones I have, so maybe after I get my gallbladder out I'll get some energy back. Speaking of which, I meet my surgeon on Tuesday the 23rd, so at that point I should have a date for the surgery. I'm still kind of nervous about it but the idea of no more pain or discomfort and some actual energy is what's keeping me going ahead with having the surgery.

Tomorrow the girls have their school Christmas program, so that should be interesting. It's always fun to watch the kids up there, you know the ones that are really into it and the ones that aren't and the music teacher trying her best to get everyone into it. Then next Thursday Little Man will have his first Christmas program, which with 8 three year old's should be even more interesting than the one tomorrow. I'll have to be sure to have the camcorder charged for that one for sure!!!!

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

No longer conflicted, which is good I guess...

.....I mean I now know what's causing the pain in my abdomen, so I can't be conflicted about what I'd want the cause of the pain to be anymore.

You see I found out yesterday that the pain is being caused by gallstones, precisely what I was hoping it wasn't. But I guess in the end it's a good thing as it is treatable and not life threatening, at least not that I know of.

So in talking with my doctor she said I could live a long time with gallstones but that they would continue to cause me pain, so I could also opt to have my gallbladder out. Wanting the cause of the pain and discomfort gone (since I guess I really don't need my gallbladder anyway, which seems odd to me), I opted for having the gallbladder yanked.

Dear sweet hubby has kindly requested that I wait till after the first of the year so his work schedule isn't so hectic, which is probably fine since I doubt they'd rush me in since I'm not exactly an emergency case.

But still the idea of surgery, whether it be before of after the first of the year, kind of freaks me out. I mean how many times have we heard about people who have complications from routine surgeries and end up 6 ft under??? My neighbor across the street had her gallbladder taken out in the summer and they nicked a bile duct causing her to stay in the hospital for like two weeks!!! See why I'm a bit nervous??? Who's to say they won't do that to me??? I can't stay in the hospital for two weeks and dear sweet hubby sure as heck can't take all that time off!!!

Okay now I'm really freaking myself out, time to just relax and try to remind myself that every case is different and that what happened to my neighbor more than likely won't happen to me as well.

Alright I'm gonna sign off now and go do some cleaning to get my mind off of surgery mishaps....... :s

Sunday, December 7, 2008

The Agony of Defeat

That's it!!! I give up!!! I can't do it anymore, nope, no way, no how!!! I surrender!!!

Why am I being so dramatic? Well other than it being my nature to do so, ;) , I've decided that no matter how hard I try I just can't keep this house clean. I mean I've tried to get rid of stuff and believe me there have been several boxes of toys that have been dropped off at the local Goodwill Store, but it just seems to keep coming back, like a fungus you try to get rid of but it grows again and again.

I grew up in a house that was no more than 900 sq. ft. and there were four of us in the family and we had at least one dog and one cat at all times, but yet that house NEVER felt small to me until we moved to a larger home after my grandmother died. Then all of a sudden it felt really small. Now I go back and forth as to whether the house never felt small because that was all I was used to or if it was because of the fact that my parents never let us accumulate too much junk. Every January we'd clean out our closets and get rid of all we didn't need or use. So the rooms (and closets) never felt crowded.

But that is so not the case with this house and it's twice as big as the house I grew up in. Now I realize we have one more family member, but still that shouldn't make that much of a difference right? I mean we have 1849 sq. ft. here and 5 people living in it and it feels like it's the size of a shoebox some days. Now dear sweet hubby knows we need to get rid of stuff but he has no down time really and what little he does he doesn't want to spend going through crap and I can't say that I blame him. But most of the stuff I can't get rid of without his approval or agreement, so I'm stuck. Now with the kids, I've gone through their stuff while they've been in school and gotten rid of quite a bit but yet it still seems like they have too many toys. And Christmas is just weeks away!!! Then when you add in the fact that Peaches' birthday is a mere 4 weeks after Christmas and then Tink has her birthday 3 1/2 weeks after Peaches, the flow of incoming stuff doesn't end for a whopping 8 weeks!!! Oy vey, I'm tired just thinking of all that.

So what's a girl to do? Do I continue to purge the kids' toys when they are at school and accidentally get rid of something they truly treasure that I had no clue about? I mean I've already tried having them go through the stuff but I barely got a Wal-Mart sized bag of stuff from them. And Little Man is just too young to really decide what to keep and what to give away, he wants it all.

So until dear sweet hubby gets transferred and we have to move or we magically win loads of money and can buy a bigger house, I guess I will just continue trying to bail out the Titanic, so to speak. It's a fruitless effort but one I'm gonna have to make in order to keep some semblance of order in the house........

Friday, December 5, 2008

November changed me

After a whole month of daily grateful posts I still find myself thinking about what I should post that I am grateful for. But then I'll stop and think that it's not November anymore so I don't have to worry about doing those posts anymore.

However the more I think about it the more I realize that it wasn't such a burden to do them. I mean while some days I just want to crawl into bed and sleep to escape the chaos that can be my life, I do have a lot to be grateful for, some major things like my family and friends and others not so major like modern conveniences and, um, alcohol. *blushing*

Especially in today's economy with so many having to either go without or move out of their houses because they can't afford them anymore. The fact that I have a roof over my head and can afford to feed my family helps me to remember to be grateful as well.

So I guess in a way this post is about being grateful for doing a month of grateful posts as it seems to have had an effect on me and how I go about my day. Because now I go about looking for things to be grateful for and not things to dread or dislike.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Conflicted

Conflicted??? Why?
Well there's a bit of a back story so let me explain........

Back about a week before Labor Day I started having heartburn at night so I started taking Maalox and I was drinking it like it was going out of style. Then the heartburn started happening after lunch as well as dinner so I knew something was up. I went online (which I'm sure most doctors love) and tried to self diagnose. I found out that if you take anti-inflammatory meds for a long time (which I was at the time) it can cause ulcers which have....yep you guessed it, heartburn as a symptom. So off to the doctor I go. She gives me 3 weeks worth of Prevacid and says to come back at the end of those 3 weeks and tell me if that helps. Well it helps, hallelujah, so back I go to say yep that did it. She gives me another 6 weeks worth of the stuff and says that if it comes back after that to come back in.

So 6 weeks later I finish up the supply and guess what, it comes back. So back to the doctor I go. She says well it could be a number of things and has me have some blood drawn so they can check my liver function, pancreas function and to see if I have a bacteria in my stomach that causes ulcers. She also gives me a prescription for a new med, Nexium, for the heartburn. The other stuff did a number on me. You don't want to know those details. ;)

Well the blood work came back fine, great, so now I have to go in for an ultrasound on my abdomen to see if I have gallstones. Ohhh fun! Well tomorrow is the ultrasound and because I have to drop the girls off at school at 9 and dear sweet hubby is working I have to wait until 9:15 for my appointment. Now granted that wouldn't be a bad thing if it weren't for the fact I CAN'T EAT OR DRINK AFTER MIDNIGHT!!!! What you mean I can't have my cup of coffee first thing??? I can't have my bowl of Cream of Wheat??? Not even some water??? Nope!!! No food or drink. UGH!! Maybe I'll accidentally swallow some water while I'm brushing my teeth.....

Okay so here's why I'm conflicted......if they find gallstones that could mean surgery to have my gallbladder removed. I mean the only other treatment for gallstones that I've seen is to let them pass but if I've had this problem since August, wouldn't you think they should have passed already??? So do I want to have it be the gallstones and then have to have surgery right before Christmas??? Or do I want them to find nothing and have to try and figure out what's going in there???

To be honest I have no clue all I know is I'm tired of not feeling 100% and if you were to ask me right now what I want for Christmas I'd say to feel as good as I did when I was 25!!!! LOL

ETA: I had the ultrasound but the lady who did it was unable to give me any information, some quality assurance thing. So it will probably be Monday, possibly Tuesday before my doctor calls me with the results. Most of the time I couldn't see what she was looking at but I did see her checking my kidney and I saw the word "spleen" on the screen once. So we'll see.....

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

My hands smell like bleach....

...for a good reason. I just got done mopping my laundry room in preparation for my new front loader washer and dryer!!! WooHoo!!! Now while I am extremely excited about a new washer and dryer it's not as much fun when you HAVE to buy them as it is when you WANT to buy them.

You see our washer and dryer are like 12 years old and weren't the top of the line when we got them. Well all the years of abuse have taken their toll. The dryer is slowly dying, with me having to set it to timed dry on the highest setting to get anything to dry in one timed load. Of course jeans and towels still require two times to get dry.

And the washer had some problems earlier this year that my dear sweet hubby was able to fix but now it's got some other problem going on, don't ask me as I can't remember, that my dear sweet hubby doesn't have the time to fix and he doesn't want to pay the enormous amount that a washer repairman would charge for labor and parts. So we found a great deal on an LG front loader pair at Home Depot. Merry Early Christmas to me!

Now some might wonder about me being excited about a new washer and dryer, but you have to keep in mind that I prefer to do laundry over cooking a meal. So a new washer and dryer is to me like a new cooking gadget is to a foodie!

So once the lovely delivery guys drop them off and they get installed I'll be sure to post a pic so you can bask in the beauty that is my new washer and dryer with me! ;)

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Oh, the weather outside is frightful,

But the fire is so delightful,
And since we've no place to go,
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow.
Ah yes, let it snow, let it snow, let it snow. Now I know sometimes I end up cursing the snow, but dang if that first snow doesn't make me feel all giggly inside. I mean there are times I still can't believe that I live in Colorado where it actually snows. Mind you it doesn't snow as much as some places, but like dear sweet hubby says "It's snows enough to enjoy but not enough to hate".
However I do know some people here in my town that hate the tiny amount of snow we do get, but I don't know why as it never sticks around long. Most of the time if you wait long enough the snow on your driveway will melt before you really need to shovel it. However I do enjoy shoveling snow, I just keep thinking of all the calories I'm burning as I do it. (The same mind set I have when I mow the lawn!)
Plus the kids NEVER get sick of the snow. They LOVE it every time it snows, seriously they do! Peaches especially. That girl could play all day in the snow if you let her. Now Tink, she lasts a little while but then she gets cold and wants to come in. Ahhhh another way she's just like her momma. I can last a little while but then the cold creeps in and I have to go inside. Plus I don't have snow pants like the kids do and my poor jeans don't protect me one bit from the snow and cold. Now Little Man, he varies on how long he can stay out there. Some times he lasts a long time and others he wants to come in almost as soon as he got out there.
So why am I writing about snow??? Well they are calling for the first real snow in our area tomorrow and Thursday. We'll see if actually materializes as the weather here can change on a dime, seriously it can, so they can call for snow but then it can mysteriously disappear and never show up. So I guess tomorrow morning when we wake up to start our day we'll know if it is really going to happen and then I'll know if I get to burn some calories!!! ;)

Monday, December 1, 2008

I'm pooped

Okay, the month of grateful posts is over so now I'm gonna take this one post to complain a little.........

What's a girl gotta do to get a good night's sleep these days???? I have no infants who need to be fed or changed in the middle of the night, but for some reason I can't seem to sleep the whole night through lately. Well okay the last two nights Little Man has crawled into bed and that always puts a halt to any sleep I may have had. Oh sure I get a little shut eye but that's about it, I shut my eyes then he stirs and I open them again. But even before he started coming in, I wasn't sleeping solidly. I'd sleep a few hours solid then wake and continue to wake up almost every hour on the hour it seems. For the past 6 months or so I've taken to turning my alarm clock around so I can't just open my eyes and see the time, but dear sweet hubby doesn't do that so I can just roll over and see his alarm clock and know what time it is, so the whole idea of turning my clock around seems silly now, but I still do it anyway.

I hate the idea of taking a sleeping aid, especially with dear sweet hubby on his last week of this nasty midnight shift, as I want and NEED to be able to respond to anything that may happen. But shouldn't you be able to wake up after being in bed for 8 hours and feel rested??? I don't, I still feel pooped and that's no way to start a day with three kids to take care of and a house to clean.

Okay enough complaining, plus I'm yawning like crazy, whoops there's another one, so time to hit the hay and hope the eyes don't open until the alarm goes off bright and early tomorrow morning.......Nite nite!