Thursday, December 17, 2009

Letter to Santa 2009

Dear Santa, All I want for Christmas is a good nights sleep. You know, one where I don't roll over to get comfortable and realize that my bladder (which is apparently the size of a pea these days) is full then lay there awake wondering if I can wait until the alarm goes off to empty it then my brain realizes I'm awake and my tummy starts growling wanting me to feed it.
Or a night where my almost 15 yr old cat doesn't jump/claw her way onto the bed and then lay on top of me trying to find some body heat to help soothe her achy joints or her brother doesn't see me roll over and think I'm awake then start to meow at me wanting me to pet him in the middle of the night. Or a night where my hubby doesn't emit loud gas waking me up because he no longer snores thanks to his breathing machine.
Or a night where one of my three sweet (but kind of large for their ages) children don't come into bed because they can't sleep in their own bed or had a nightmare and then proceed to fall right back to sleep hogging up my side of the bed because even though daddy doesn't snore any more his breathing machine makes him sound like Darth Vader.
THEN....they toss and turn and at some point clock me in the head with a flailing arm or Heaven forbid, a leg! Oh and if I could wake up from all this WITHOUT a sore back I would be so grateful! Is that too much to ask????
Love, a very tired Julie =]

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Cheap or expensive, it doesn't matter...

....they all fall apart about the same time anyway. And it doesn't matter how much or how little I wear them, they fall apart just as quickly.

Just what am I talking about? Slippers!

I've bought the cheap, or should I say inexpensive, ones from Target and the more expensive ones from Kohls (granted those were on clearance, but the original price was expensive in my book) and they've both fallen apart before a year was over.

So where the heck are you supposed to go to buy slippers that might actually last you longer than a year???

I'm too chicken to buy any from the likes of L.L. Bean or Eddie Bauer as I'm just sure that I'll plop down some good money for those and they'll fall apart in less than a year as well.

I dunno, maybe I'm just too hard on my slippers but since I don't like to wear shoes in the house and you can't wear just socks in the winter here, I wear them a lot.

Who knows maybe I'm supposed to end up being that one family member that always has slippers on their Christmas list. I remember my mom always had a nightgown on her list. Of course that could be because that was probably the only thing she could use that my biological dad would actually buy her......

Saturday, November 28, 2009

It's been WAY too long...

...since I last posted, but so much has been going on around here.

There's not only the day to day chaos that this household experiences but our dear sweet neighbors had to up and move to Michigan. They found out that their son-in-law had been doing unmentionable things to their two grandsons (ages 1 & 2). The son-in-law is now in jail, their daughter is in a safe house and their grandsons are in foster care. The monster claimed that his wife not only knew about the unentionable things but was a part of it, which is false. But the courts have to play it safe and put the boys in foster care.

Here's where the move came into play.

Our neighbors wanted to get custody of the boys but in order to do so they had to live in Michigan. So of course they moved.

This whole situation has affected me as I didn't think it would. I'm friends with my neighbors daughter but not what I'd call really good friends. But still to hear what had happened and the pain she was going through I couldn't help but be affected.

It's the closest I've ever come to anything like this and just the thought that that monster had spent time with my children (never alone thank goodness) made me sick to my stomach. I just hope against all hope that those boys are young enough that they can forget all that has happened and grow into healthy productive members of society and not turn into the monster that their father has become.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Yet another snow storm in October...

This time it was enough to have the first two snow days of the 2009-2010 school year. So on Wednesday and Thursday, October 28th and 29th, we spent at home watching the snow fall. In all I think the total was about 21" and I can't tell you how happy the kids were that they had school on Friday the 30th, as it meant they'd have their Halloween parties/carnivals at their respective schools....I was just happy to not have them home for 5 days straight!!! Not sure what I will do when Thanksgiving break comes....




November already????

Where did October go???

Seriously I think the month just flew by. The first week was filled with my mom's visit. Then I spent at least a week catching up on all the housework I gladly put aside to spend time with my mom.

Then of course we had to get ready for Halloween. And while I always love decorating and planning for Halloween for some strange reason on the day of Halloween I can't wait to get it over and done with. I know strange behavior for someone who claims that Halloween is one of her favorite holidays.

Today we not only have to adjust to the end of daylight savings but I also plan on taking down Halloween and putting up Thanksgiving decorations. Of course I'm kind of dragging today since I was up last night with Little Man who woke up crying because of growing pains. So we'll see how much of that taking down of Halloween I get to.....

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Snow in October????

Yep folks we have snow in October and it's not even the middle of the month yet!!! Now I don't know what this means for Halloween but I'm thinking I'd better start considering costumes that can have multiple layers underneath them. Of course if I do then it will end up being nice. Here's a little video I shot of Peaches and Little Man in the snow yesterday morning. Tink isn't a big fan of the cold and snow, she'll play in it but not for long, so she was inside with me where it was nice and warm...smart girl!
video

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

I think it's been long enough....

....that I'm able to blog about it now.

Almost 3 and a half weeks ago, on the last day of dear sweet hubby's vacation, we made one of the toughest decisions we've ever made.

We decided that it was in the best interest of the family and of the dog, Rocky, that we find him a new home.

His shedding was out of control and making mine and dsh's asthma worse than it already was. Then there was the fact he was chewing on himself out of boredom. I mean life is hectic for the rest of us, but for him it was just about as boring as it could get. I didn't have time between housework, yard work and taking care of the kids to walk him on a regular basis and dsh works two jobs and has little time to spend with his human family let alone with the canine member.

It was especially hard on dsh as Rocky was his dream dog, but it was him who made the choice to do what was right for everyone involved. It hurt me as well but even more so to see dsh in such pain. I told him we didn't have to do it, we could figure something out so that he could stay, but dsh just said no, that it was best for the dog to find a family who had not only the time to focus on him but the space for him to run around in.

I still get upset when I think about it, as I feel like we really let the dog down. Of course it wasn't the most thought out decision we ever made, it was a very impulsive decision made two years ago. We tried to stick it out, to not shirk our responsibility of being a pet owner, but we just couldn't keep fooling ourselves. At this stage in our family we just don't have the time or resources to have a pet that requires so much attention.

Sure, we have the two cats we've had since college, but they are going on 15 years old and won't be around too much longer. Plus they are pretty much low maintenance cats. You just put out fresh water, food and make sure their litter box is clean and they are happy campers. Plus most of the time they just prefer to be left alone so they can sleep. No need to worry about them getting bored!

So now we are back to being a no dog family, as Little Man puts it. Dsh isn't sure he wants to try having a dog ever again, but I'm thinking that maybe a few years down the line after the cats have moved on to that happy mouse hunting ground in the sky, we might try again. But I can tell you this much, if we do decide to try being dog owners again it will be with a NON shedding medium to small sized dog who is quite happy sleeping most of the time!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Progress....we're actually making progress!!!

This week my dear sweet hubby has taken off in order for us to purge the house and get it to a point where it isn't overstuffed and embarrassingly messy. So far we've cleaned out underneath the kids' bathroom sink, cleaned out and organized the linen closet and cleaned out and organized our closet, bathroom and bedroom. I don't think my bedroom has ever looked so nice. Now I just have to paint it and put up some nice matching window treatments and it will be perfect.

Today we started on the loft and made some surprising progress even though we only worked on it for about an hour (after we finally finished our bedroom). Tomorrow we are going to tackle it head on and get that puppy whipped into shape once and for all. Much to the kids' dismay we are seriously cutting down on the amount of toys we have. They don't play with all of them and we just don't have the room for them to keep them all and have space to play.

It has been pretty much working on cleaning and organizing, two of my least favorite activities but I think that it has been one of the most enjoyable weeks I've had so far. Mainly because I get to do it all with my ever so handsome dear sweet hubby!!!!

Monday, September 7, 2009

Floored, flabbergasted, and flustered....

Why is it that people are having such a problem with the president making a speech to the schools tomorrow??? Is it because he's half African-American? Is it because he's a democrat? What is the reason that some schools are not showing the speech and in the schools that are why are some parents opting out of having their children watch??? Are they afraid that the president might try and brainwash their children into thinking that all Republicans are wrong? Do they honestly think that a speech about staying in school and doing their best is going to turn political???

UGH!!! I am so honestly flabbergasted about this that I can't see straight. It just makes no sense to me why people have such a difficult time with it!!! I mean George H. W. Bush made a speech to schools back in 1991 and I don't recall anyone having any problem with it back then! I mean I don't even think it was an option to opt out of watching it. And if you know differently please share with me!

I just read an article in the paper about how three schools in town are not showing the speech at all and one is going to show it later after they've had a chance to view it and plan a lesson plan around it. Really? You have to plan a lesson plan around a speech about staying in school???

Oy vey, what's this world coming to?

Saturday, September 5, 2009

It's so dang easy to do....

....so maybe that's why we do it so much.

Complain, that is.

I hate it when I find myself complaining way more than I need to. Yeah, money is tight for us and there for a while we weren't sure what was making dear sweet hubby have anxiety attacks (turns out he's hypoglycemic), but we have a nice house to live in (even if it feels small sometimes) and three beautiful children who are all healthy and bright, even if they do fight a bit much sometimes.

SEE!!!! I just did it. I was talking about the blessings we have and I couldn't help but put in some complaining comments. I mean I should be glad I have a house this big! The house I grew up in was half the size and we had 4 people living in there, so this should not be too small for 5 people. And yeah my kids fight like cats and dogs sometimes, heck even the cats and dog we do have don't fight as much, but hey at least they are able to fight. At least they don't have some kind of disability, mental, physical or emotional, that might make them lose touch with the world around them and all that it means to be a child growing up and learning their way.

I heard a song on the radio recently that made me realize that yeah, I may not have a perfect life but hey I'm alive and that's what matters most, right? The song is the last one on my playlist below. It's called "I'm Alive" by Kenny Chesney with Dave Matthews. And I love me some Dave Matthews! And yes it's a country song, but I think that since Dave Matthews sings as well that it will probably get some pop music air play. But that's not really the point. The point is that in listening to it it reminded me that just breathing is a gift and some people don't get that gift every day.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

I {heart} fall!!!

Out of all the seasons we are blessed enough to have, I have to say that fall/autumn is my favorite. Think about all fall offers us and then see if you agree:

Wonderful colors, not only in foliage but in decor options
Halloween
Thanksgiving
Chilly weather perfect for a light jacket or cozy sweater
The wonderful show the trees put on when they shed their leaves
Comfort food
Hot apple cider
Hot chocolate
Apple pie
Pumpkin pie

I could go on but will stop there.

A while back a friend said that she preferred spring to fall as everything dies in the fall and when I thought about it at the time I agreed with her and started saying spring was my favorite season, when everything is born again.

But.....

I thought about it some more and I've decided that fall is just simply my favorite season and that instead of thinking of plants and trees dying, I'll prefer to think of them as hibernating. Having a nice long sleep for the fabulous show they will put on in the spring when they all awaken with their beautiful colors. Isn't that a much nicer way to think of it?

So as you may have already noticed (and if you haven't...when was the last time you got your eyes checked? ;)) I have changed my blog to a fall theme already. I picked one that had the colors but didn't say "Fall" just yet. I'll wait until at least mid September to do that. ;)

This morning while I was kid free I walked through Hobby Lobby and just drooled over all the fall decorations. The "Welcome Harvest" ones, the Thanksgiving ones, the Halloween ones and even a few of the Christmas ones (yes I know that's in the winter, but fall leads up to it, right? Plus I have a mild snowman addiction....;) ) And I realized in my drooling that I have unconsciously decorated my house in fall like colors. If you look at my house you will see that I mainly have colors that would be associated with fall, burgundy, sage green, browns, golds and creams.

I guess maybe that there is just absolutely no denying that I {heart} fall!!!!

Monday, August 24, 2009

It doesn't matter how I arrange the bedrooms I can't see to win

Let's see, when we first moved into this house almost 6 years ago, Peaches had her own room and so did Tink. Then when we realized there was a little boy on the way they got put into the same room and Little Man got his own room.

Fast forward about three years and Little Man is starting to sleep in the girls' room. So since we were having a summer of visitors I put all three kids in one room, turning the other bedroom into a guest room. It worked for a while but then it started getting harder and harder for them to stay quiet and not fight at night.

So then I moved Peaches into the other room by herself. That worked for a while but she didn't really like being alone in a room and Tink and Little Man were just not suited to share a room at 5 and 3 yrs of age.

So..........I moved Peaches back in with Tink and again put Little Man in his own room. But again Peaches and Tink weren't getting along.....and with Peaches now 8 and very much wanting her own space to retreat to.

SO...........again I move Peaches into her own room and put Tink and Little Man into a room together. That was this past June/July and now yet again Peaches is not necessarily liking being alone in her room.

Seriously???? Are we going through this AGAIN????

Why yes, it would seem so. So now I have to ask the question that never seems to get answered......How do I arrange the bedrooms so that everyone is happy????

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have no clue what the answer will be and do I really want to go through the work of moving them all together again? Or do I want to keep stepping over toys to get to the computer while there is a room sitting empty instead of having sleeping children in it????

Actually scratch that whole not knowing the answer because I do know the answer and it is to get a larger house with enough bedrooms for every kid to have their own and a basement big enough to hold all their toys, far away from my computer. However since we don't have a money tree in the backyard, any old rich relatives we don't care about ready to kick the bucket, and we haven't won the lottery yet, I doubt that answer will come true any time soon.....*sigh* but at least now I know that there is an answer.....

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Ever have one of those days....

....when you feel like you suck at everything? Well I'm having one of those days!

I feel like I suck at being a parent since I am yet again helping the younger two clean their room and the loft is a disaster yet again. Wouldn't a competent mother be able to stay on top of stuff like that and have it not get so bad? I think they would, so with that line of thinking it would mean that I must not be a very competent mother.

Then I feel like a failure as a wife and partner to my dear sweet hubby. He had an anxiety attack on Wednesday and it's more than likely due to the fact that he works two jobs and works practically every day. So if I was a competent wife wouldn't I have a job as well that would pay enough for my dear sweet hubby to work only one job and have more days off??? Well I kind of think so and apparently someone else thinks so too, as today I got the feeling that I'm to blame for my dsh's anxiety attack. DSH didn't make me feel this way, he isn't 100% sure what caused the attack, but someone else did and it's been in the back of my mind the whole day.

And I still can't locate a blasted Diego DVD we checked out of the library over a week ago. Last I remember I put it in the DVD player on Wednesday afternoon for Little Man to watch and now I can't find it. I've looked everywhere and have torn the whole house apart. I even looked in the car but it isn't in there either. So now we are going to have to pay to replace it plus a $15 processing fee. Happy happy joy joy!!! NOT!

ARGH!!!!!! I just want to crawl into bed and start this week all over again.........

Friday, August 21, 2009

I'm such a blond, even if the roots don't show it....

Okay...so here's the story behind the whole "I don't look good with black hair post"....
Originally I dyed my hair a dark brown, wanted a change and my hair had lightened to an unnatural blond color. Well after dying it I noticed two blond patches in the back of my head. No problem, just buy more dye and touch those up. Well I did and ended up with this...

Notice the DARK color of the hair and that lovely light spot? Yeah, it was black around the edges, dark brown on the top of the head with THAT ONE LIGHT SPOT!!!!!!!! I cried when I saw it, it was just so horrible. Called my hair stylist and she had no openings that day....so not wanting to wait I went to Wal-Mart. I got one of those hair color remover kits and ended up with this....

Thankfully I had purchased some additional hair color at the same time to fix this result. So I dyed it yet again (was really starting to get concerned that my hair was going to fall out at this point). I got a really dark brown, but I had purchased a kit that not only had the hair color but the highlighting stuff as well. So the next morning I did the highlights, but they CAME OUT ORANGE!!! Here's a picture of the highlights and they don't look too too bad in the picture, but trust me THEY WERE ORANGE!!!!!

So I decided to try and tone down the orange highlights and got some more hair color (in total I think I spent close to $40 in hair color, ugh) and instead I got all over dark again. Frustrated I almost went Britney Spears on my hair and shaved it off. But a crying Peaches convinced me to not shave it off completely. So I attempted to cut it myself. Granted it's not the best hair cut in the world but it's not too bad until I can convince my dear sweet hubby to let me spend even more money on my hair again to get it professionally cut. So until then I look like this....

Which has prompted some to comment, "Oh I see you went back to your natural color"....actually no, brown is not my natural color, blond is, dark blond these days, I just have obscenely dark eyebrows that are the root cause to this whole hair coloring mess....if they weren't so dang dark I wouldn't have worried about my hair being so unnaturally blonde......ARGH.....maybe I should just shave the eyebrows off and not the head of hair...............

Saturday, August 15, 2009

I finally know.....

....I don't look good with black hair!
Don't ask!
If all turns out well I'll explain later....just too mortified about what happened right now to explain...*sigh*

UPDATE: Well the black hair is gone, thank goodness as it's just not me even though dear sweet hubby REALLY liked it, and now some dark brown is in it's place, what I was going for originally. Dear sweet hubby is going to help me highlight it tonight when he gets home, so maybe then I will post pictures. Not sure if I want to share with the public what my hair looked like. Personally I'd like to forget about all the hair disasters that have occurred in the last 24 hrs.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Sign update...

....remember a few posts back where I stated I was posting up signs telling the kids things I hated repeating to them over and over? Well I totally forgot about it but a new reader (Hi DM!) asked that I post how it's going....so here's how it turned out...

The sign in the family room that says "No food or drink in the family room" works FABULOUSLY!!! Much better than I could have hoped for. I can't tell you how nice it is to have the kids ask "Mom can I eat/drink this in the family room"! I just tell them "The sign says you can't so the answer is no" and THEY ACCEPT THAT ANSWER!!!!!!! *jaw dropping on desk*

The one that says "No TV time" works when it's up, but since I usually put it on the TV it's not up all the time and it did get misplaced for a while. In all actuality it works even if I don't put it up. Sure they grumble when I tell them to turn off the TV and go do something else, but at least they are listening.

The other two signs "No books left on the floor" and "No toys left downstairs" are kind of hit and miss. The book sign works better, but as I look behind me where the books are kept I do see a few on the floor, but nothing like it was before. The toy one also works on a occasion but at least the toys that are left downstairs are small and easy to put in a small pile. Usually it's the Legos that are left downstairs, which while small are VERY painful if you step on them in bare feet, so that's a mixed result there.

With this success I am tempted to make a sign stated all the things that must be accomplished before the kids can turn the TV on when school is in session. They can watch some cartoons as long as they are dressed, fed, hair and teeth brushed and shoes located. But sometimes I forget to remind them of that so I think I need a sign to help remind myself...lol

Saturday, August 8, 2009

Well it looks like I'll be getting a job soon...

Poor dear sweet hubby is getting so burned out working two jobs to make ends meet and even though he works 7 days a week money is still tight, so it's time for me to find a job that will pay well but can be worked around either the kids' school schedule or dear sweet hubby's schedule so that all the money I earn isn't eaten up by daycare costs. Now the million dollar question is if such a thing actually exists!!!! Somehow I highly doubt it does.

My neighbor works for a women's clinic and they are in need of a front desk person and they pay exactly what I would like to be paid, but unfortunately I would have to be there at 7 am and the kids don't start school until 9. Now I could try to put the older two in the before school care at their elementary school but I doubt I could do that with Little Man since he's still in pre-school. Even though his pre-school is only a block away from the elementary school.....who would walk him over to the pre-school? And I doubt that the women's clinic would allow me to come in after I get the kids to school. I could try to ask my neighbor though, but I doubt it.

But then if I get that job there is the problem of needing day care for all the days off and vacations....what do I do then?

Oh why oh why does going back to work have to be so dang difficult?????? *sigh*

Saturday, August 1, 2009

Quickly becoming my favorite month....

August, that is. It's rapidly working it's way into the #1 position of favorite months.

Why you ask?

Well because it's a month of days of nowhere to go, i.e. summer vacation, with the end of it being the return of my lovely, wonderful, oh-so-sweet children to school.

Can you detect the dripping sarcasm in that last part of that sentence? ;)

No really, I do enjoy the start of a new school year and not just because I get to leave my children at school and get a few moments of peace and quiet. I also LOVE buying school supplies. The aisles of crayons, markers, backpacks and lunch bags just bring a smile to my face. I could walk them and just stare at it all for hours.

Hmmmm, I gotta wonder if that has anything to do with my desire to someday at some point become a teacher.......;)

Monday, July 27, 2009

Do you know of any nose loving spiders?

Because apparently one has made a home in my son's nose.....well at least that's what he thought.

Not 10 minutes ago Little Man came up to me and told me he had "A web" in his nose. LOL Once I actually understood what he was saying (he doesn't pronounce his words too well sometimes) I had to giggle. I then told him that was actually snot in his nose hairs. He then gave me a puzzled look as he walked away. I was waiting for him to turn around and ask me about having hair in his nose, but he didn't.....guess having hair in your nose isn't as scary as having a web in there...LOL

Sunday, July 26, 2009

I'm tired of saying "NO"....

...so I'm making signs to do it for me.

Both Peaches and Tink can read, so I figure they should have no problem. Plus I'm using as many imagines as I can so that Little Man can hopefully figure it out for himself.

So far I've made a "NO food or drink in the family room" sign, a "NO toys downstairs" sign, a "NO books left on the floor" sign and a "NO TV time" sign. I'm going to use packing tape to protect the signs and then I'll hang them in the appropriate places. The "NO TV time" one will only go up when I don't want them watching TV.

Only time will tell if these signs even work. I mean we all know how those "NO littering" signs don't always work, but hopefully I'm raising better citizens than those who ignore said signs.

So keep your fingers crossed that the signs work because if there is one thing I hate it's repeating myself and especially repeating myself saying the word "NO". Which is actually quite funny when you consider I'm a stay-at-home mom of three....LOL

Thursday, July 23, 2009

A little piece of advice...

....when you read the bottle of Mike's Harder Lemonade and it says it's really harder than Mike's Hard Lemonade....BELIEVE IT!!!

Okay I'm going to go back to listening to my music and downing some ice water in hopes of sobering up some before I head to bed..........d'oh

Thursday, July 16, 2009

My mind and body have two totally different ideas

about what I'm going to accomplish today!

Last night I had such big plans to clean and finish up moving Peaches into her own room and Little Man into the room with Tink. HOWEVER this morning my body decided that I needed to sleep in a little instead. Then it decided to not wake up after eating and having some coffee. So I went to have another cup of coffee and when I was getting the milk to put in it a bug decided to go all kamikaze on me and dive into my coffee!!! Arrggghhhh!!!! And that was the last cup of the pot too!!! (Since it's just me that drinks coffee I don't make big pots of it)

So now I'm here to gripe a little before taking a shower and hoping to salvage my plans for a big clean up today. Wish me luck because if I'm not successful my mind will surely go insane no matter how much sleep my body tries to make me get!!! ;)

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Viewing the past with rose colored glasses

Have you ever noticed that when you look at parts of your past you tend to see them as not being as bad as they might have actually been? I'm asking this because when I mention how much my two daughters fight and wonder if I'll make it out of their childhood sane, my mother always talks about how much my sister and I used to fight and how she wondered the same thing. Now granted I am aware that my sister and I didn't become the best of friends until I hit my last year of high school, but I don't remember fighting nearly as much as my two girls do.

So this makes me think that as we grow older and get further away from events in our past we tend to make them seem better or rosier than they actually were. Kind of like when women remember childbirth. It never seems as bad 3-4 years afterwards as it did during the actual event. ;)

But I do know that there is one area of my life that I will never view with rose colored glasses and that is junior high! Bill Gates and Donald Trump could offer me all their money to relive it and I would still say no. High school was a bit better (I had some great friends who helped me wade through it), but I don't think I'd ever romanticize those years either.

Which brings me back to my two fighting daughters. Since they are only 25 months apart, I hope with all that I am and have that they become the best of friends before Tink reaches her last year of high school. Because if there is one thing they'll need to survive junior high and high school it will be a best friend to be there for them through the thick and the thin.

Monday, July 13, 2009

Am I creative or just never satisfied???

I don't think it's a big surprise to anyone who reads this blog, or knows me personally, but I LOVE to switch things around. I'm always rearranging my furniture and can't seem to keep the same blog look for very long.

And this isn't usually a problem, I mean when I rearrange I get to clean really good behind the furniture, which with my family is a good thing. You can't imagine the "stuff" and dog hair I find! *eek*

But earlier when I was contemplating changing the look of my blog I got to wondering......

Does all this switching things up mean that I am just a very creative person who has so many ideas that she can't stick with one thing for long.....
OR
Does this mean that I am just never satisfied with the way things are and am constantly changing things to try and find a way I do like????

This first scenario sounds so much better, so I'd like to think that it's that one, but is it really???

Usually people are inclined to think better of themselves than what is actually the case. But then again should we all just automatically assume the worst of ourselves? On one hand there is the denial of the bad in ourselves and the other is the denial of the good....hmmmmm....this is one for all those psychologists out there....

Friday, July 10, 2009

Hindsight's worth it's weight in gold

You know back in the fourth grade I decided I was going to be a teacher. Then in the sixth grade I had the coolest teacher, Ms Jusaitis. I SO wanted to be her that I knew for sure that one day I'd become a teacher myself.

What happened?

To be honest I'm not sure. I think it was my natural curiosity that made me veer from my original plan of becoming a teacher. I took a psychology class and was so fascinated by how the human mind works that I decided to major it in it. But as I soon learned you can't do much of anything with just a bachelors degree in psychology.

Ah dang.

I had plans of going back to school to get a master's degree but I got married instead and then didn't have the money to go back. Then I had three kids in 4 years, so that really put going back very low on the totem pole of priorities.

Then last year I started volunteering in the girls' classrooms on a weekly basis and I suddenly remembered my original ambition of becoming a teacher. We still don't have the money for me to go back and get my teaching credential, but I think I have a way of earning money working at a school but not be an actual teacher, for now at least.

I'm so desperately hoping to become a para-professional at the girls' school once Little Man is in kindergarten. Of course I'm hoping to get him enrolled in all-day kindergarten so that I can work all day at the school. But I would need to get the job in order to enroll him in all day class, as they charge a whopping $210 a month for all day. Now that may not seem like much to some, but remember money is tight for us and we've never had to pay for daycare before, so that is a considerable amount of money for us. But if I was working it wouldn't be a problem.

What is a para-professional you ask? Well I'm not 100% sure, but I think it's just a fancy way of saying teacher's aide. You know like how they now say administrative assistant instead of secretary?

So once the school year has started in August I am hoping to volunteer as much as I can in hopes of getting my name known and then I'm going to try to feel out the prospect of getting hired on next year. Don't know if that will work or not, but it's worth a try right?

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

One thing I really love

I don't have the time to be on here posting, really, so I'm just going to post one thing that is on my mind and then get back to cleaning my kitchen to the melodious sounds of my playlist.

I decided earlier as I was driving home from the neighborhood pool, (yes we drove even though it was in the neighborhood I mean would you really want to walk home with three tired kiddos while there was a threat of a thunder and lightening storm? I didn't think so.), that I LOVE the feel of my skin after I've been swimming in a pool. A lake not so much, too much nature in there...lol. I just love the way my skin feels after it's been exposed to chlorine. I know some people may think that's weird as most can't wait to get home and shower after they get out, but not me. I just love the smell and the way my skin feels tight, like it shrank in the pool.

Just another reason that some day, some way I will have my very own pool in my backyard!!!

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Thank you for the love and the memories

Today marks 16 wonderful years that my dear sweet hubby and I have been a couple. Sixteen of the most wonderful years that still aren't enough for me, I need at least 50 more with this sweet man of mine.

Our wedding anniversary isn't until the 12th (we will mark 12 years of wedded bliss) and dear sweet hubby told me I was being silly when I wished him a "Happy Anniversary" this morning. He said now that we were married the dating anniversary didn't count any more, but I beg to differ.

It was on this date in 1993 that he totally changed my life for the better. Until he took a chance on me I had only experienced unrequited love. I had never had the joy of having someone else like me when I liked them. So imagine my joy when this handsome, funny, caring man thought I was worth dating at the same time that I wanted him so desperately to!!!

And now that we are much older, and hopefully somewhat wiser, I still find myself feeling like the luckiest girl in the world that this handsome, funny and caring man still thinks I'm worth being with!!! :)

Dedicated to my children....

I have to admit I probably visit my blog more to listen to the music than to actually post, but I've created a play list of all my favorite music so I love to turn it on and just listen to the music that brings me such joy.

However in listening to my music I have realized that if I were to dedicate one song to my children it would be "I'll Stand By You" by The Pretenders. In listening to it it totally sums up how I feel about each of my children.

I tried finding a link I could put here so you could just click on it and hear the song but don't seem to have the brain power to accomplish that this evening, so I'll just put the lyrics so you can read it. If you want to listen to it it's number 71 on my play list. I hope you enjoy the song as much as I do!

Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don't be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
'cause I've seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

So if you're mad, get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I'm a lot like you
When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
'cause even if you're wrong

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you

And when...
When the night falls on you, baby
You're feeling all alone
You won't be on your own

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you

I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Man I hate having to post this again...

...actually I'm not sure I posted it last time or not, but once again my dear sweet hubby did not get the promotion he applied for. Yet again they went with a person who already worked at the terminal in need of a manager, even though this person was not as well qualified as dsh. It's all about saving money these days, not who would be able to run the terminal the best. So sad but so very true.

*sigh*

So for now we have to continue with the status quo since we are all well aware of how rare it would be for us to win the lottery. I mean we have a better chance of getting hit by lightening, something which is most definitely not on my list of really fun things to do.

I just gotta keep reminding myself that at least dsh has a job, two even, and that we are able to support our family. That we have a nice house, even if it is a bit small for us, to live in. And who knows, maybe just maybe there will be an opportunity for dsh somewhere closer to our families out in California......our families would sure love that!

Monday, June 29, 2009

Something's gotta change...

...and hopefully soon!

With dear sweet hubby working two jobs and me being the sole person to deal with all three kids all day long, our frustration with our situation is starting to rub off onto the kids. And that's just not right.

Something has to change, whether it's dsh finally getting the promotion he so clearly wants and deserves or a sudden financial windfall (I know the first one is more likely to happen, but...), but either or, something has to change so we can finally be the happy not-so-stressed-or-frustrated family I've always wanted us to be.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

How massively scary is this???


This is my 8 1/2 year old daughter's foot inside my size 10 shoe!!!! She is growing way too fast for my liking!!! *sniff sniff*

Monday, June 22, 2009

I'm in a foul mood today

Don't know why exactly, it isn't that time of the month which usually makes me feel this way...maybe it was the stinky nights sleep I had last night, or maybe it's the lack of anything real interesting to do today, or then again it could be the fact that my dear sweet hubby is getting discouraged about his prospects of getting the promotion he so desperately wants. He interviewed last Tuesday and we figured he'd had heard something by now, but no such luck.
I just really wish something good would happen for the man so he can get the boost in confidence he so clearly needs....

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Laundry, the necessary evil

Oh how I dislike doing laundry, the dragging it downstairs, the shoving it into the washer, then moving it to the dryer, then taking it out of the dryer in a timely fashion after the beeper goes off letting me know the load is dry, then folding it and putting into a basket to lug it back up the stairs and then putting it away!!!

But for as much as I dislike doing laundry, I guess it could be worse if I didn't own a washer and dryer, I mean think of what those poor mothers in the early 20th century had to do with like 10 kids and just a wash bucket?!?!?!?! Holy cow, could my life be worse if I lived a hundred years ago!

And for as unexciting of a task as laundry is, I guess it has to be done, or we'd all be wearing clothes so darn stinky they'd probably be able to walk on their own. And oh how I love to crawl into a bed with fresh clean sheets! I have one set of sheets that I'd have on the bed all the time as they are so soft when you first put them on but the longer they are on the bed the softer they become. But again, if I kept them on all the time they'd probably be extremely soft, but dang would they be stinky and dirty, so off they must come and downstairs they must go.

As you probably can tell....I'm doing laundry today. I really should try and do it like every other day, but I don't.....actually come to think of it I probably do do laundry every other day, as it seems like I'm always doing laundry. Last time I bought laundry detergent I decided to try and keep track of how long it lasted. So when I opened it up to use it the first time I wrote on the top "started using 04-15-09". 96 loads later on 06-16-09 I finished up the detergent. After doing some math, which took a couple of tries to get it right, it's been a while since I've had to do this kind of math people, I figured out that the 96 loads in 61 days works out to like 1.57 loads of laundry a day!!! So really I could do at least 2 loads a day and still do the same amount as I do now, which is more like 6 loads a day every so often. Now I don't know what's worse, to always do two loads of laundry a day or do the 6 loads in one and have an occasional day off from it? But I guess when I consider how great my dislike for laundry is, I'd rather have an occasional day off from it than to do two loads a day.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Finally a trip to the dentist

Okay, okay I'm going to admit that I am a horrible mother, one who hasn't taken her kids to the dentist until today. And I am going to try and excuse this by saying how expensive dental insurance is and that we finally decided we had to bite the bullet and have that extra money taken out of dear sweet hubby's check each month so that our kids could have beautiful healthy teeth.

So when dear sweet hubby finally decided to get his butt to the dentist a few weeks ago he made appointments for all three kiddos.........however he made them for 8:10 AM!!! "Huh?" was my reaction when he told me the time. Does this man understand how hard it is to get three kids up and going when they don't have to be at school until 9 am and he expects me to have them up and ready and out the door by 7:45 at the latest??? He kindly told me he'd be there to help me do this, but forgot to tell me, he'd be meeting me at the dentist, not at home getting the kids fed and dressed, like I thought he meant when he said he'd be there.

Well amazingly we made it and it was nice to have dear sweet hubby there, as then he was able to be with Little Man while I was with Tink when they got their teeth cleaned. Then it was Peaches' turn. They all have wonderfully beautiful teeth with NO CAVITIES!!! YAHOO!!! Peaches does have some pitting on her molars so we have to head back next week to have those sealed, but that's not a problem.

Each kid got a new toothbrush and a little timer that tells them how long they have to brush their teeth. They are all so excited about starting to use their new goodies and Peaches even asked if she could brush her teeth after lunch! I'm glad they are so enthusiastic, maybe now they won't grumble about brushing their teeth when I tell them to.

And right before I started to type this Little Man was checking my teeth out and telling me I had some black dirt in the back ones, to which I had to try and explain that they were fillings. That all seemed to go over his head but he nodded like he understood. Hmmmm maybe he's going to be a dentist when he gets older and he's doing that whole nodding the head while listening to the patient thing early???

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

I have a nagging feeling....

....we are moving soon. Can't reveal too much right now as I don't know much myself but suffice it to say that an interview has been had by dear sweet hubby and it went well. As soon as we know, you'll all know............so stay tuned for more info!

Sunday, June 14, 2009

A funny I had to share....

Peaches asked me if she could go out into the front yard to get the tug-o-war rope to play with Rocky in the backyard and I said yes. Little Man heard the front door open and shut and asked were Peaches went and here's the conversation that followed:

Mommy: She left to join the circus.
Little Man: Why?
Mommy: She thought it would be fun.
Little Man: Oh.

A little while later he gets distracted from the video he's watching and gets up to look for Peaches. While looking he yells out "Peaches? Was the circus fun?"

When he finally finds her he asked her again and she replies "I didn't join the circus!"
"Mommy said you did."
"Mommy was teasing you."
"Oh."

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

*sigh*

With all that's been going on around here that sigh just about sums up how I'm feeling at the moment. And not a sad sigh or an overwhelmed sigh, but a "things have finally slowed down a bit" sigh.

First there was the end of the school year, a busy week and then it was immediately into cleaning for the in-laws arrival. Dear sweet hubby had that whole week off, which was nice not only for our family but for his parents who hardly get to see him when they come out to visit.

We had a great time with the in-laws and even got to go down to the Museum of Nature and Science one day. Then our neighborhood had it's community garage sale and we actually sold a bunch of stuff that was hanging out in our garage!!! I can walk to the big door without climbing over crap!!! IT'S AMAZING!!!! Now we just have to get rid of a bunch of little crap and maybe, just maybe we can actually park a car in there!!!! A girl can dream!

So now dear sweet hubby is back at work, the in-laws have gone back home and it's time to start thinking of creative ways to entertain the masses so I can keep my sanity for the next ten weeks. Thankfully we have passes to go and see the dollar kid movies that one of the theaters in town are showing. Thank you Grandma and Grandpa!!! That will at least give us one activity to look forward to each week, oh and give me something to use as leverage to get the kids to do what they are told to do!!! Bwahahaha!!! The best part is that it will help count down the summer, as the last movie shows the week before school starts up again! Woo Hoo!!! (can ya tell I'm a teeny bit excited about this?)

But my mission this summer, other than keeping my sanity, is to help Peaches with her cursive, Tink with her reading and Little Man with his writing. Oh and I want to paint the girls' room, it so needs it, and mine and dsh's room too, again it needs it. And um there is the task of trying to not get buried by housework! Think I'm a bit too ambitious this summer??? I figure the more I try to accomplish the less down time I'll be trying to fill. Plus how great would it be if I got it all done??? Yeah me, if that happens!

Well I guess if I'm gonna get any of this done, I'd better get my butt off of this computer. So here's hoping I don't get too distracted and remember to post here more often! I forgot how much I enjoy just babbling on here. It really is like therapy sometimes, free and easy therapy! ;)

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Oh blog how I've neglected thee....

....but life has been so chaotic lately that this is the last thing I have energy for. Actually right now I'm not really in the mind set to do a proper post, but I thought I'd at least write something as I just did a few changes.

Let's just suffice it to say that it's gonna be a LLLOOONNNNGGGG summer here! Heaven help me make it to August 19th!!! PLEASE????

Monday, May 18, 2009

Just a little bit of what's kept me away....

....well first there was Little Man's birthday party on the second of May, that took some preparation and then when it was over I didn't want to do a dang thing. Then the Monday after the kids and I headed to our neighborhood park to meet some friends and Little Man slipped on the steps leading up to the slides and split his lip open real good. Thankfully my friend took the girls while I took Little Man to the urgent care for stitches. Dear Sweet Hubby was working. Anyway, after three hours of waiting he finally got three stitches in his lip. My Little Man was so brave when he got the stitches, barely crying when they gave him the shot to numb him up. Then the Friday after that we headed back to have them take the stitches out and again it took almost three hours of waiting. When the doctor came in to take out the stitches she noticed his lip was infected, so we got a prescription for antibiotics and were instructed to feed LM pro-biotic yogurt for the next ten days.

During all this we were still waiting to hear if Dear Sweet Hubby got the promotion he applied for in Nebraska. Well this past Friday, the 15th, some big wigs were to come to the terminal to do a visit. We thought maybe, just maybe, they were also coming to tell Dear Sweet Hubby that he got the position, well they didn't. They didn't say a single thing to him about it. Not even a "Well thanks for applying but we've decided to go with someone else". Nope. Nada. Needless to say DSH was in a funk that evening and so was I. While I wasn't 100% keen on moving away from the town we currently live in, I was really looking forward to DSH only having to work one job and being home at nights and on the weekends. The only one who was happy was Tink because this means she'll be here to have the teacher next year that she really wanted to get. And Little Man, well he has no clue as to what we were all anxious about, so he was probably pretty happy too. But Peaches was quite bummed as it means no room of her own for a while. With the housing market as bad as it is and with so many houses for sale in our neighborhood there is no way we'd be able to move right now. I mean we could put the house up for sale but I don't want to have to try to live in a museum of a home for 6 months to maybe even a year with three kids, two cats and a dog while we wait for someone to buy the house.

So that's what's been keeping me away. When I do get on the computer it's usually to check email real quick, look at Facebook and then get off. Plus I was waiting to post hoping I'd have some good news to report. Hopefully you've all had a nice quiet past few weeks and I promise to try and post more regularly soon....

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Busy Busy Busy.....

So much has been going on lately that I can't get my head to stop spinning. Plus then if you add in my addiction to Facebook which doesn't seem to be waning, then you get the reason why I haven't posted in a while.

First we had Little Man's birthday on Wednesday, the 29th. I had, or am still having, such a hard time believing he's 4 already. I mean where did the time go??? But I am so loving this age with him, he's so cute and mischievous, which I realize can be a bad combination. Plus he still really loves to snuggle with me, which is like one of my favorite things to do, so that's a bonus as well. It's funny because I asked him to always want to snuggle with me, even when he's like 16 and he said "okay". Hmmm I may have to remind him of that when he's 16 and wants no part of snuggling with mommy.....LOL

Then I've been cleaning my butt off for the party today, which is a pirate theme, so it should be loads of fun, but I just get so caught up in making my house look perfect for guests that I run myself ragged trying to clean EVERYTHING!!! Ugh, I need to learn to either keep it cleaner all the time or be less concerned what people are going to think if I have a pile of papers on my kitchen counter.

THEN.....you add in the fact that my dear sweet hubby has applied for a position with his current employer in Nebraska and I've really been busy, both physically and mentally. If I'm not thinking about the party then I'm thinking about possibly moving. We LOVE it here in Colorado, but this position in Nebraska could mean so many good things, a bigger house, dear sweet hubby only having to work one job and actually be home on the weekends, and him getting away from his current boss who stresses him out to no end. But then the town this position is in only has a population of about 25,000, AND NO TARGET!!!!! I'm still dealing with the whole "no Target" idea, but hey if dear sweet hubby is going to be home on weekends, we can do a trip to the nearest big town that actually has a Target!

And I don't think that Tink and Little Man completely understand what all moving to another state means, but Peaches, while sad about leaving her current school, is so excited about possibly having her own room that she can barely see straight. So I've decided if we do move then I'm going to try so very hard to make this a positive experience. Plus we'll only be about 3 hours away from where we currently live, so we could always try to come back for a visit to see our very best friends.

Anyway, this has all been on my mind lately, so I haven't posted much, but I have visited here to keep up on the blogs I follow. Anyway, I should probably get going, I need to bake the cake for the party so it has time to cool before we have to frost it. We are turning two 8" round cakes into a pirate hat. I'll try to post pics of the final product, which should turn out good with dear sweet hubby and I working on it.

So until I post again, have a wonderful day and hopefully you have very little to think/worry about! :)

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Must...curb...addiction....

....to....Facebook (and it's quizzes)!!!

AAARRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!!

Okay, now that that is out of my system I will continue.

I had heard about Facebook from my sister but didn't pay much attention to it, in fact I avoided it at all costs. Why did I need another thing to keep me glued to this blasted contraption called the computer???

Well......then she tells me she's reconnected with some friends of ours that we used to work with back in the day. So I go ahead and sign up.

Next thing I know I'm on there all the time I have over 100 "friends", granted some of those friends are people I went to high school with and haven't spoken to since, well, high school, but still they agreed to be my "friend" on Facebook so they must not hate me, right?

THEN....it happens, the dreaded Facebook quiz!!!!

Oy vey bagels, I swear it's so addicting and I can't help but do every quiz I see a "friend" has done. I think it's more out of curiosity that I do them, and if you know me well you know that I was more than likely a cat in a previous life as curiosity has come close to killing me a few times....LOL. No seriously I'm a VERY curious person, so if given the change to know what my monster name is, why wouldn't I find out??? These things are important to know!!! I mean I have to add my vast amount of useless knowledge somehow!!! ;)

Anyway, I'm doing a test and only going on Facebook either very early in the morning or late at night, but only once a day, and trying to do some cleaning during the day instead of playing around on Facebook doing quizzes. Who knows, maybe if I stick with this test for a while I might be able to get my house clean again!!! LOL

Monday, April 20, 2009

I wish I could believe...

..in God that is.

I have several friends who are religious and I sometimes wish I had their ability to believe and have that faith that there is a God, but no matter how hard I may try, I just can't.

I don't know if it's because I grew up with an atheist for a father or not, but I just don't have it in me to believe. I seem to be a more "I'll believe when I see it" kind of gal. And since no one can seem to provide concrete scientific proof that God exists, I just can't go there.

Sometimes I think it would be easier if I was able to believe and join that community that goes to church each weekend. Because it can feel pretty isolating when you don't talk about having to drag the kids to church, or fighting with them to get dressed nice enough to go.

But in the end I don't think it makes me a bad person because I can't believe....does it? I mean I'm a responsible citizen who tries to do right by her fellow man and takes the best care she can of her family. I don't steal, do drugs or other crimes. I just can't believe in something I can't have proof of.

But this doesn't mean I can't do my version of praying for those I know in need. For instance a friend of mine has a son who is sick and in the PICU right now, and she's expressed gratitude for all the prayers they are getting. Now I know most people consider praying to be done solely to God, but my version is a very strong hope that things improve. Again I don't think this is bad of me to do, praying without actually praying to God, at least I hope it isn't.

You may be wondering if because I can't believe in God if it makes me an atheist, well I don't think so. I prefer to think of myself as agnostic, I don't believe in God but that doesn't mean you can't. And I'm not going to sit here and tell you that you are wrong for believing, if you do, and I do hope that you won't tell me I'm wrong for not believing.

Just think how much better of a world we could be living in if everyone took the "Live and let live" ideal to heart.....

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Here comes the sun...do do do do

Man on man am I glad to see the sun out today. It's a bit chilly but according to the weather forecast that will all change.

You see the weather was overcast and then rainy on Thursday. Then Friday it was a lovely mix of rain, snow and wind. We had our power go out for a little while and even though it was daytime, so still light enough in the house, the kids were all in a panic. Plus they kept opening the fridge to see it with the light out. Then yesterday it rained all day long. Okay towards the end of the day it let up some, but we didn't see a lick of blue sky or sun all day.

But then this morning, blue sky and SUN!!!

Granted my backyard is a muddy mess, but at least the kids are outside and playing and not locked up inside and fighting.

So far today I've worked on laundry, unloaded and loaded the dishwasher (but can't run it as apparently I'm all out of detergent, ugh) and put Easter away finally. I'm tempted to go for a walk, but with all three kiddos that could be a recipe for disaster. Maybe if my neighbors comes over wanting to walk their dog, I'll go, it's so much easier with more than one adult to move the kiddos along.

Anyway, I just wanted to say how glad I am to see the sun and that all that rain/snow/slush has jump started our lawn into becoming green again, so nice!

Friday, April 17, 2009

I don't want my kids to be afraid of me, but.....

....how else can I get them to understand that it is THEIR responsibility to clean their rooms and put away their clothes??? I've tried asking nicely, explaining the way things work around here and even getting mildly upset but all that seems to get me is two dragging girls who just fight with each other instead of cleaning up their room so they can be released to the rest of the house!!!


AAARRRGGGHHH!!!

I got mad at them this morning, explaining they are 6 & 8, they are MORE than capable of picking up after themselves and putting away their own clothing. I mean I don't ask them to clean the whole dang house or even do their own laundry. I just want them to pick up their toys and books and put away their clothes!!!

That's not asking too much is it???

I remember when I was younger and my mom would tell us to clean our room, if we didn't do it she would come in and use her arm to clear off our dressers, dumping everything on them onto the floor, making a bigger mess for us to clean up. Then she'd say through her teeth "NOW CLEAN IT ALL UP!" and boy oh boy did we ever!!! But somehow if I were to try to do that now, Peaches would probably curl up and cry and Tink would just continue to goof off. I don't know what I'm doing wrong.

I don't want to clean it all for them and have them think that if they stall or goof off eventually Mom will get so frustrated she'll clean it all up for them. 'Cause Heaven knows I don't like cleaning any more than they do but I HAVE to clean, it's basically my job these days, besides taking care of them.

And I hate that I'm so frustrated again!!! It's just plain annoying to feel this way. Am I the only one who feels like this??? Or are there other moms out there who feel like they can't win for trying???

You know, they say "misery loves company" and I could certainly use some company right about now.....*sigh*

Monday, April 13, 2009

Is 36 too early for menopause????

I've been having such a hard time sleeping lately that I have to wonder if menopause is on it's way. I mean I go to bed all cold and freezing and snuggle up nicely with my sheet, two blankets and the comforter, but then I wake up a few hours later sweating like a pig roasting on a spit! So I sit up to take the comforter off and realize I have to pee like a race horse! So I get up out of bed and walk to the bathroom to do my business, only to find all the sweat has now turned ice cold, so when I finally crawl back into bed I end up snuggling up with the comforter I had just sat up to take off! Geesh, I mean I know it's not hot flashes, but is it a precursor to hot flashes???

Then libido anyone??? I seem to have no desire for any hanky panky......I know I know TMI, but isn't that like another sign of impending menopause??? I still desire my dear sweet hubby and am more in love with him today that I was the day we got married, but I can't recall the last time I initiated anything. I'd rather just snuggle and fall asleep these days.


I dunno maybe none of it is related to menopause, but it would be nice to have something to blame.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Happy Easter to everyone!!!

I just wanted to wish you all a very Happy Easter. I hope you are all having a glorious day with your families. We're having a very relaxed and chill day here.

Of course there was some excitement when Tink finally lost a tooth the natural way! She's lost a tooth before but that was from a crash that resulted when she rode an office chair down a sloped driveway. She's so excited and can't wait to tell her teacher tomorrow that she lost a tooth "the right way" (her words). And she was was gnawing on a solid chocolate Easter Bunny when it happened.....I've always told them that too much sugar would rot their teeth out....maybe now they'll believe me! LOL ;)

We've done the egg hunt and watched "It's The Easter Beagle, Charlie Brown", but I can't seem to get any excitement over watching "Easter Parade", dang it, as it's one of my absolute favs.

Oh well, I'm just thankful to have a nice day with my family, even if they don't share my taste in movies. :)

Saturday, April 11, 2009

The day was going so well too....

...but then it started to go downhill about a half an hour ago. First it started off when Little Man decided to try and eat the blue Easter egg dying tablet. Not knowing if he actually swallowed it and not being able to find any information about accidental ingestion on the box, I called poison control. Thankfully we determined by reading the ingredients that it won't be toxic, but you'd think they'd put that on the blasted box. So now he has a blue mouth.

That wasn't so bad as it was frustrating but then Peaches came inside from the backyard and I really got frustrated.....

She brought in my brand new broom and it is now broken. I guess when I wasn't looking yesterday they took it outside and left it out there. Peaches says she has no idea how it got broken maybe the dog got it. But there are no teeth marks from the dog and it looks like it was snapped because the head of the broom is broken off of the handle.

And I loved that broom too! My old one I had had for like 8 years or so, so dear sweet hubby thought I deserved a new one.

I'm hoping he can fix it with some of that gorilla glue or something.

*sigh*

And I had such high hopes today would be a good day free from frustration. I was able to get the girls to clean their room this morning and we were going to make sugar cookies this afternoon followed by decorating eggs.

Maybe I just need some more caffeine and some food and then I can try to salvage the rest of the day.....

Friday, April 10, 2009

Can I get off the hamster wheel now?

Ever have that feeling that you are on a hamster's wheel, going round and round but getting absolutely nowhere?!?!

I've been having that feeling lately, kind of like I'm starring in that movie "Groundhogs Day" where every day is the same thing.

I don't know if it's because we've fallen into such a routine and don't vary from it often, if at all, or if it's because this is the longest my dear sweet hubby and I have lived in one house since we both lived at home, but whatever the reason I'm getting really annoyed with the feeling.

Of course it could also be because we didn't travel anywhere in 2007 or 2008 and now it looks like we'll be home bound again in 2009.

And I totally hate the fact that here I am again posting a whiny complaint instead of some cute story about one of my offspring. I just hate feeling like I'm complaining since being a stay-at-home mom is something most women would love to be instead of working for a living. But in my defense there are pros and cons to being a stay-at-home mom as well as a being a working mom. And while the grass may look greener on the other side of the fence, often times it's just an optical illusion.

*sigh*

Okay now I'm going to take my frustration and go clean up my kitchen and maybe get some laundry put away.....hahahahaha.....I may get the kitchen cleaned up but something tells me the laundry ain't going anywhere any time soon, well at least until tomorrow....

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

I'm so proud of myself

It was a bad bad bad morning here. Kids playing instead of getting ready for school. So needless to say I was quite happy to ship them all off to school. After the last one was gone I headed home and decided to take a nice long walk with the dog, without anyone complaining, walking too fast or walking too slow. It was the longest walk I've taken in a while and about half way through I almost wished I hadn't gone so far. But the dog was so happy to be out and in some new territory.

Not having a pedometer, well one that is reliable and also tells you how far you've walked, I had no clue how long of a walk I had taken. So after picking up the two youngest kiddos I headed to the gas station to fill up. Usually I hit the reset button on the mileage, so I can tell how many miles I get per tank.

But I didn't, I waited.

I waited until I got to the point in my walk that I stopped and turned around. And then I drove the same exact route that I had taken on my walk. You should have seen my surprise when I saw how far I had actually walked!!!

2.2 miles round trip!!!

No wonder the dog pretty much drank the entire contents of his water bowl and then plopped down and passed out!

It felt so good to do that but unfortunately I only have one morning a week that I can do that alone. The other kid free morning I spend volunteering at the girls' school. So I'm either going to have to have Little Man ride his bicycle or drag him along in the wagon if I want to do this walk more than once a week. I'm determined to shed a few pounds and since I absolutely detest dieting, love food too much and have no will power, I am going to try taking as many long walks as I can. It not only gets the dog out but it helps me to shed a few pounds in the process.

Keep your fingers crossed that the weather stays nice so I can keep it up, because I'm afraid if we get some more snow or another cold front I'm gonna stop and that wouldn't be good....

Sunday, April 5, 2009

My attempt at Artsy Fartsy photos...

I have 4 friends who are amazing photographers, 3 of them even have their own photography businesses. The one who isn't a professional is the sister of one of the ones who is, so their talent must be genetic or something. ;)

Anyway, one of the pros, Mrs. Davis, took some wonderful pictures of pink tulips and put them on her blog. I fell in love and not only wished I had her talent but a bouquet of pink tulips. Then a few days ago my dear sweet hubby came home with some pink tulips. Not wanting to assume they were for me I asked why he bought them. His reply was...."I saw them in the store thought they were pretty and bought them". So apparently he just bought them because HE liked them, but that's okay because we all got to enjoy their beauty.

Then later on that day it hits me....I have pink tulips now!!! I can try to take some nice pictures of them!!! Granted my little digital camera is probably nothing compared to Mrs. Davis', but it was worth a try.

So now without further adieu I will post MY attempt at some nice photography. Please put down all liquids you may be holding or drinking, as I wouldn't want to be responsible for you spewing it all over your monitor and keyboard....;)









Saturday, April 4, 2009

I've created a monster.....

My lovely oldest daughter has recently requested that she have her own blog. Nervous about her being so young and having a blog where she could give out too much information accidentally, I stalled. But she kept asking and I finally gave in, but made sure it was a private blog that only those we invited could read.

We created the blog last night and she's already got two posts and a play list on there. She even has the cute background going on.

I think I've created a monster......

Her first entry was so cute, it talked about how she got to take a book to school and got to wear a favorite dress of hers. Ah the things that are important to an 8 year old.

This mornings post talks about how it's snowing and she finished her book last night. It's so cute I can barely stand it!!!

I'm hoping that having this blog will help cultivate her love for writing. She's always been a creative child, sitting by herself and making up stories for her toys. Maybe this means she'll become a famous writer who not only gets to do what she loves but can make a living out of doing it.

So maybe while I've created a monster, maybe it will turn into a successful and happy one later on in life.......one can hope!

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

It's just not possible.....

....that in four short weeks my Little Man will be 4 years old!!! JUST NOT POSSIBLE!!!

I mean Peaches was 4 years old when Little Man was born.....so where did the time go???

I'm sad and yet happy at the same time. He's becoming such a fun little guy, but then I'm scared that if he gets too old he won't be the momma's boy he is now. We have such a wonderful time together, snuggling and giggling. And my heart literally melts each time he says "I love you mommy"....sniff sniff.

But I'm trying really hard to not wish time away and to take each day and enjoy it to it's fullest, even when the little bugger is getting into mischief......which I think he is doing as I type...time to go....... ;)

Monday, March 30, 2009

Obsess much???

I do!

My latest obsession is the Bloody Jack series of books by L.A. Meyer.

Back in January I had my gallbladder removed and a dear friend of mine sent me the first two books of this series to read as I was recuperating. Unfortunately I didn't have much of an opportunity to read much during my recuperation, but I did start it as soon as I was back to normal. But my obsession didn't start right away...oh no it took a while.

Now I started the first book and found it to be very good, but was only really able to read it during the time I would sit in my car waiting for Peaches to get out of school. Tink and Little Man are usually watching a movie on the portable DVD player, so I take that time to read. Then when I was finally done with the first one, I started the second one.

Then it happened!!!

About half way into the second book, The Curse of the Blue Tattoo, I became obsessed!!!

It was then that I started frantically searching the stores in town to see if I could find the third book to purchase. Granted I knew I'd probably be able to check it out from the library, my usual way of getting new reading material, but I was so obsessed with the series now that I knew I wanted to OWN all of the books, not just check out copies that had been abused by other readers.

However I struck out, which I found totally ridiculous. I mean I thought for sure that Barnes & Noble would have the series for sale, but nope. It only had book one, Bloody Jack, for sale. How can you have just the first book in a series for sale??? Don't they think their patrons might want to read the whole series???

Anyway, I resigned myself to just checking out the third book, Under the Jolly Roger. But then I got a surprise, instead of owing money for taxes like we thought we were going to, we were actually getting some back. Not much mind you, but enough that I was able to get Dear Sweet Hubby to agree to let me buy the next three books in paperback off of Amazon!!!

HALLELUJAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The best part was his response......"Yes you can buy them...if it helps you to keep your sanity!" Now there's a smart man, one who knows that it's best to let the wife spend $25 and have her happy, then say not right now and have her go insane.....

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Have you ever tried to psych yourself up to do something....

....and had it totally fail on you?

I've been sitting here at my computer for FAR longer than I had planned to, as my plan today was to whip this house into shape. However the longer I sit here the less likely that plan seems to be feasible. I didn't get as much done yesterday as I had hoped since it was a snow day for the kiddos and I didn't have to run all over taking kids to school and picking them up.

So I told myself that today I would do all the cleaning that needed to be done, but that just isn't happening. Of course the longer I sit here and type the longer I put off getting anything done.

The worst part is that I've already had two cups of coffee and I don't seem to have any more energy than before I gulped down the coffee!!! How does that happen? I thought the caffeine in the coffee was supposed to help energize you!!! Maybe I need a third cup, of course then I'll be running to the bathroom like every 5 minutes, so I wouldn't get much done even if I did have a lot more energy.

Oh well, time to stop writing useless babble and actually try to get something done. Because if there's one truth in this world it's that if I don't clean this house, no one else will........*sigh*

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Lazy lazy go away...

...come again another day when I don't have so much laundry to do and a messy house to clean up!!!

Ugh, really it feels like instead of rain preventing me from doing anything, it's this persistent laziness. I dunno maybe it's because Aunt Flo is still here and about to leave or maybe it's because it's been mostly cloudy for the last few days and windy as all get out to boot. I mean it's hard to do a good clean when the kids are all stuck inside, and without the TV or computer to console them.

Actually the loss of the TV and computer haven't been too bad, so far. Of course they've had school since they lost it, so we'll see how this weekend goes. I mean it could be H*** on Earth having two days with no electronics to entertain them. Keep your fingers crossed the weather is nice this weekend so they can goof off outside instead of fight in my house all weekend.

Well I guess I should get going now. Tink has to put away her clothes I lovingly washed, dried and folded for her, but something tells me that her silence is not her busily putting away said clothes.....so time to go check that out. Plus I can hear Little Man getting frustrated over something or other, with him it could be anything. I swear some days he's more of a drama queen than the girls. Also I need to get dinner ready to be thrown into the crock pot. It takes about 2-3 hours on high, so I HAVE to have it ready to go in before I pick up Peaches and at the rate I'm going it's gonna take me the hour and a half until I have to leave to get it ready!

Lazy lazy go away....
Come again another day....
I just don't have time to play today!!!

Monday, March 23, 2009

Unrealistic expectantions???

Do I have them???

That's what I have to wonder after spending all day yesterday trying to get my lovely daughters to clean up their room. I mean is it too much to ask of a 6 yr old and an 8 yr old to keep their room picked up and their toys put away??? I'm already aware that I can't expect my almost 4 yr old to be neat and tidy but when I ask him to pick up he's usually good about doing it. It's the girls who aren't. Oh Peaches will get going and do it but usually only after my head has exploded and I've taken away privileges like the computer or TV. It's Tink who even in the face of losing her beloved TV time still tries to claim she wasn't made for cleaning! Yep my sweet, determined, and willful mini-me tried to explain to me how she wasn't made for cleaning so therefore she wouldn't be able to clean her room up by herself. Of course if I had said "Okay I'll help you" you can bet your bottom dollar that she would have helped for a nanosecond and then left me to do the rest of the cleaning. Oh I'm starting to wise up, especially as she gets older and that routine becomes less excusable.

So after yesterday the girls have lost their TV and computer privleges for the rest of the month, which may end up biting me in the backside, especially if the weather turns as bad as they are predicting. I guess maybe next time I decide to make a decision like that I should check the weather report first! Ugh.....

Sunday, March 22, 2009

So.....whatcha think?

I did a new header for this blog and am wondering if it looks okay. I've already gone back and redone a few things as you couldn't really read the title of the blog the first time, so now it's bolder and hopefully easier to read. Leave a comment and let me know "yay" or "nay".
Of course the way I like to change things around this header may not last long....LOL

Oh and in case you are wondering that is me preggo with Little Man on the left. Geesh I didn't realize how enormous I was until I went to make this collage.....yikes. And those three pictures are of Little Man, right after he was born and cleaned up, at a year after he started to walk and at almost two. My how time flies, he'll be 4 at the end of April...sniff sniff....but I so do not need to add to the chaos of this house...so no more kiddos here.....

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Scenes from a birthday well spent....

It was my birthday last Thursday (the 19th) and here's how my family and I spent the day.............

Woke up to three kiddos in my bed, was so nice to just snuggle with everyone for a while.

Then dear sweet hubby made me French toast even though he isn't keen on it. He added cinnamon, it was quite tasty.

Then we all headed down to the Museum of Nature and Science for a family day. Dear sweet hubby took the day off so that I could actually feel like it was a special day, wasn't that sweet of him? It was the best present I got!

After a wonderful time at the museum we headed home and Tink, Little Man and myself snoozed on the way. It felt good to nod off.

Once we got home we realized we had no birthday cake. So the girls and I headed to Super Target to get one. It's further away than the Super Wal-Mart, but I had a gift card from my in-laws that was already burning a hole in my pocket....;)

Then it was a tasty dinner of corned beef and red potatoes....yum yum. That lovely dinner was followed by the fantabulous cake I got at Target. It was a fudge a cake with a devilishly good fudge frosting. So good you needed a glass of milk with it!

All in all it was a fantastic day and probably one of the best birthdays I've had in a while. I hope that each of you reading this are lucky enough to have a birthday as good as mine! :)

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Happy St. Patrick's Day everyone!!!

Well I hope you are all enjoying your St. Patty's Day and wearing your green like all good Irish and honorary Irish should. Since our family is Irish we are very good about wearing our green, even getting dressed asap to avoid those dreaded pinches.

This morning the kiddos had green pancakes for breakfast. I would have too but we were too low on Bisquick to make a full batch, so I made a half batch and that only made 6 pancakes, so no pancakes for mommy. I guess I could have used food coloring to make my Cream of Wheat green, but since Cream of Wheat can look like stucco anyway, I don't think I'd want to eat green stucco.

And normally we'd be having a traditional corned beef dinner tonight, but since dear sweet hubby has to work both jobs today, I'm saving the corned beef for tomorrow night when he'll be home to enjoy it nice and fresh with the rest of us. I will however see if I can turn my Mike's Hard Lemonade green with food coloring tonight, since I'm not a beer drinker.

So in closing, I hope you all have a wonderfully Irish day and stay safe if you choose to go out and celebrate the holiday!!

Monday, March 16, 2009

What does this tell you about my cooking abilities???

Dear sweet hubby's idea of a birthday gift for me...


I'm LOST.....

seriously I'm so lost today, I have no clue what to try to accomplish and where to even start!

It's the first day of Spring Break and I didn't get my usual early start, which was nice but then again it's thrown me off.

Ugh, I could be doing laundry, cleaning out my bedroom, cleaning the loft, getting on the girls to clean out underneath their beds, maybe even going through junk in the garage to find more items to donate, but yet, here I sit at my computer, putzing, posting and playing around on Facebook trying to find a profile picture I actually like, which seems harder than figuring out what to do today.

Dear sweet hubby actually gave me something to do, but I'll wait until after lunch. You see he forgot his work shirt for his second job tonight, so he needs me to bring it down to him. So since the kids have all asked where we are going today, I think we will take it down to him and save him the trip of coming home to get it. Then maybe we'll venture over to the outlets, not that there's much there, but we can look around maybe, or go check out the Target down there....

Friday, March 13, 2009

Girl Scouts beware!!! HERE WE COME!!!

Last night I took the girls to an open house for our local Girl Scout office. I was hoping to finally get Peaches (and now Tink) signed up as we have been trying for the past two years. The first year a troop was never started, since at that time Kindergartners were only in the Daisy troop for one year, so those troops were hard to get started. Then last year the lady from the Girl Scout office never called me back when I called asking about info on a Brownie troop for Peaches. Geesh who knew it was going to be so hard to get signed up???

Anyway, I read in the paper yesterday about the open house, so I went online to get more info. It was there that I realized you could sign up to become a "Juliette", which is a Girl Scout who has no troop and works on her own to earn her badges. This is our big chance to finally get signed up!!!

Then I figure after getting signed up as Juliettes we can look into getting a troop set up at the girls' school in the fall, as that is when they do their big recruitment push. Plus waiting until the fall to start a troop will give me more time to figure out what I'm doing, as something tells me I'll be VERY involved in the troops that get started.

Another bonus is the fact that they've restructured the Girl Scout levels. It used to be that the Daisy level was just for Kindergartners but now they have included 1st graders. So now the Brownie level is for just 2nd and 3rd graders. And it will be much easier to get troops started with more than one grade per level.

So it looks like even though we had a rough start, we are finally on our way to becoming Girl Scouts. Then the next challenge will be getting Little Man into Boy Scouts when he's old enough and I know Dear Sweet Hubby is really looking forward to that one since he was a Boy Scout himself many years ago!

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Spring "Break"???? Seriously??? It's considered a break???

Okay maybe for the teachers and other staff at the school, but for us parents, especially the stay-at-home variety, it is most certainly NOT a break!!!

Oh that sounds so bad doesn't it??? And I do feel some remorse for dreading the coming week with all three kids home all day, but it's not like it's gonna be 24/7 fun around here. With this blasted economy we aren't doing any traveling so that means we get to stay home. *Insert sarcastic happy dance here* ;)

Hopefully I can come with with something each day for the kids to look forward to. Gonna have to put my thinking cap on and come up with something other than cleaning out closets and purging toys, as something tells me they won't find those activities very fun!!! LOL

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

The color purple...

...seems to make breakfast taste better.

Yesterday morning I made scrambled eggs for Tink and Little Man said he'd have some if they were a color. So in went some purple food coloring. Here are the purple scrambled eggs the kids ate:



Then Peaches, who was eating oatmeal, wanted to color her breakfast purple too, so here's what hers looked like:


Notice the paper, she likes to read it now in the mornings too, especially the weather report.

Ah the things we do for our kids....

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Daylight savings is kicking my butt!!!

It was another trying morning here with me constantly after the kiddos to get ready for school. But the most surprising thing was after dropping them all off (yep I'm child free at the moment) I wanted to come home and nap myself. I feel extremely guilty about this as I know they can't do that as they are at school. So instead I'm filling myself with liquid energy, aka coffee, and hoping to get our coat closet cleaned out while I have no kids to cry about all the old school work I'm tossing.

So wish me luck that I can get it done and stay awake in the process......eventually we all have to get used to the time change, right????

Monday, March 9, 2009

I'm just sayin'.....

......that the person who came up with the whole Daylight Savings idea DID NOT have three kids he had to get ready for school an hour earlier than what they were used to!!!!
That's all I'm sayin'................grumble grumble grumble.........

Sunday, March 8, 2009

I am so funkified

What's funkified you ask??? It's where you are in a funk that you see no end to.

Why am I in a funk you ask again??? Well it is a lot of things, the economy, the fact we can't travel anywhere this year because of the economy, the fact that every day is the same blasted thing but with different clothes and meal combinations, oh and the fact that we just sprung ahead an hour and I'm not tired enough to go to bed but I know when that alarm goes off tomorrow morning I SO won't want to get up.

I hadn't planned on doing another depressing post after the last one about no vacation this year.....again, but I can't help it. I dunno maybe the funk is magnified today because of the fact I forgot to take my "happy pill" this morning whoops.

But then again it could be magnified because I've been working so hard to keep the house tidy and this evening when I went to put the girls to bed I discovered their room to be a total disaster area. They tried to blame their friends who were over earlier today while their dad took their mom to urgent care for her knee she twisted, but I told the girls that they knew I'd been working on keeping the house tidy and they should have picked up after the friends left.

I just feel defeated, like no matter how hard I try it's never going to be as tidy as I want it to be because no one else seems to be on board with this idea. Oh dear sweet hubby is but he's always working so it's hard for him to help enforce it when the kids have time to correct the error of their ways.

Maybe I should just get my butt off the computer and go downstairs and eat the brownie my neighbor brought over for me last night. I think some chocolate right before bed might help me have some sweet dreams......what do you think????

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

I need a vacation

Yep I need time away from the daily grind. We haven't been on a true vacation, you know one AWAY from the house since December 2006. Granted we've had visitors come and stay with us, and while that was most enjoyable and I loved every minute of those visits, it still doesn't seem like a true vacation since I'm still in my own home.

Unfortunately because of this lovely economy and the fact we had to replace dear sweet hubby's vehicle with one that came with a car payment, we aren't going to be going anywhere again this year. This will be our third year of going nowhere and I'm a bit scared that I may lose my mind.

You know I don't think that my dear sweet hubby understands this because when he leaves work he gets to come home. Granted the man works like two dogs combined, but at least he gets to leave his places of employment at the end of the work day.

I, on the other hand, never get to leave my place of employment. I'm here everyday, all day, 24/7. In fact I've just started allowing myself the frivolous adventure of going out on Tuesday mornings when I'm kid free to wander around stores I have no intention of buying anything at. I just don't want to go home and have the mounds of laundry stare at me, or have the fact I really should clear off my dresser beckon me to get off my lazy butt and do it.

I guess in a way my home is starting to feel like a prison that I only get one moring, equaling about 2 1/2 hours, of freedom from. Oh wait I do get another two and a half hours of freedom from this house on Thursday mornings when I go in to volunteer at the girls' school. But even then I'm surrounded by kids, and while I do enjoy volunteering it's not exactly like a vacation since I'm there with my own kids.

I dunno, I think I sound kind of whiny right now, but I can't help but be to a certain degree. I mean I understand we are doing good by still having a roof over our heads and the fact that while some people are getting laid off my dear sweet hubby is still employed at his two jobs. But when I hear of other people going off to vacation spots like Disneyland or a cruise, it makes me feel a tad bit sorry for myself. And I just don't think you'd be truly human if you didn't feel some sort of self pity every once in a while.

So after my month of posts of things I LOVE, I'm sorry to burden you all who read this with my pity party post. But like I've said before, this is my one place I can come to vent and complain a little. I certainly don't need to be complaining about this to my dear sweet hubby, because I know he feels just as bad about not being able to go on a vacation as I do.

Who knows maybe 2010 will be the year we finally get to go on a vacation again! Maybe....