Thursday, April 23, 2009

Must...curb...addiction.... (and it's quizzes)!!!


Okay, now that that is out of my system I will continue.

I had heard about Facebook from my sister but didn't pay much attention to it, in fact I avoided it at all costs. Why did I need another thing to keep me glued to this blasted contraption called the computer???

Well......then she tells me she's reconnected with some friends of ours that we used to work with back in the day. So I go ahead and sign up.

Next thing I know I'm on there all the time I have over 100 "friends", granted some of those friends are people I went to high school with and haven't spoken to since, well, high school, but still they agreed to be my "friend" on Facebook so they must not hate me, right? happens, the dreaded Facebook quiz!!!!

Oy vey bagels, I swear it's so addicting and I can't help but do every quiz I see a "friend" has done. I think it's more out of curiosity that I do them, and if you know me well you know that I was more than likely a cat in a previous life as curiosity has come close to killing me a few times....LOL. No seriously I'm a VERY curious person, so if given the change to know what my monster name is, why wouldn't I find out??? These things are important to know!!! I mean I have to add my vast amount of useless knowledge somehow!!! ;)

Anyway, I'm doing a test and only going on Facebook either very early in the morning or late at night, but only once a day, and trying to do some cleaning during the day instead of playing around on Facebook doing quizzes. Who knows, maybe if I stick with this test for a while I might be able to get my house clean again!!! LOL

Monday, April 20, 2009

I wish I could believe... God that is.

I have several friends who are religious and I sometimes wish I had their ability to believe and have that faith that there is a God, but no matter how hard I may try, I just can't.

I don't know if it's because I grew up with an atheist for a father or not, but I just don't have it in me to believe. I seem to be a more "I'll believe when I see it" kind of gal. And since no one can seem to provide concrete scientific proof that God exists, I just can't go there.

Sometimes I think it would be easier if I was able to believe and join that community that goes to church each weekend. Because it can feel pretty isolating when you don't talk about having to drag the kids to church, or fighting with them to get dressed nice enough to go.

But in the end I don't think it makes me a bad person because I can't believe....does it? I mean I'm a responsible citizen who tries to do right by her fellow man and takes the best care she can of her family. I don't steal, do drugs or other crimes. I just can't believe in something I can't have proof of.

But this doesn't mean I can't do my version of praying for those I know in need. For instance a friend of mine has a son who is sick and in the PICU right now, and she's expressed gratitude for all the prayers they are getting. Now I know most people consider praying to be done solely to God, but my version is a very strong hope that things improve. Again I don't think this is bad of me to do, praying without actually praying to God, at least I hope it isn't.

You may be wondering if because I can't believe in God if it makes me an atheist, well I don't think so. I prefer to think of myself as agnostic, I don't believe in God but that doesn't mean you can't. And I'm not going to sit here and tell you that you are wrong for believing, if you do, and I do hope that you won't tell me I'm wrong for not believing.

Just think how much better of a world we could be living in if everyone took the "Live and let live" ideal to heart.....

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Here comes the do do do

Man on man am I glad to see the sun out today. It's a bit chilly but according to the weather forecast that will all change.

You see the weather was overcast and then rainy on Thursday. Then Friday it was a lovely mix of rain, snow and wind. We had our power go out for a little while and even though it was daytime, so still light enough in the house, the kids were all in a panic. Plus they kept opening the fridge to see it with the light out. Then yesterday it rained all day long. Okay towards the end of the day it let up some, but we didn't see a lick of blue sky or sun all day.

But then this morning, blue sky and SUN!!!

Granted my backyard is a muddy mess, but at least the kids are outside and playing and not locked up inside and fighting.

So far today I've worked on laundry, unloaded and loaded the dishwasher (but can't run it as apparently I'm all out of detergent, ugh) and put Easter away finally. I'm tempted to go for a walk, but with all three kiddos that could be a recipe for disaster. Maybe if my neighbors comes over wanting to walk their dog, I'll go, it's so much easier with more than one adult to move the kiddos along.

Anyway, I just wanted to say how glad I am to see the sun and that all that rain/snow/slush has jump started our lawn into becoming green again, so nice!

Friday, April 17, 2009

I don't want my kids to be afraid of me, but..... else can I get them to understand that it is THEIR responsibility to clean their rooms and put away their clothes??? I've tried asking nicely, explaining the way things work around here and even getting mildly upset but all that seems to get me is two dragging girls who just fight with each other instead of cleaning up their room so they can be released to the rest of the house!!!


I got mad at them this morning, explaining they are 6 & 8, they are MORE than capable of picking up after themselves and putting away their own clothing. I mean I don't ask them to clean the whole dang house or even do their own laundry. I just want them to pick up their toys and books and put away their clothes!!!

That's not asking too much is it???

I remember when I was younger and my mom would tell us to clean our room, if we didn't do it she would come in and use her arm to clear off our dressers, dumping everything on them onto the floor, making a bigger mess for us to clean up. Then she'd say through her teeth "NOW CLEAN IT ALL UP!" and boy oh boy did we ever!!! But somehow if I were to try to do that now, Peaches would probably curl up and cry and Tink would just continue to goof off. I don't know what I'm doing wrong.

I don't want to clean it all for them and have them think that if they stall or goof off eventually Mom will get so frustrated she'll clean it all up for them. 'Cause Heaven knows I don't like cleaning any more than they do but I HAVE to clean, it's basically my job these days, besides taking care of them.

And I hate that I'm so frustrated again!!! It's just plain annoying to feel this way. Am I the only one who feels like this??? Or are there other moms out there who feel like they can't win for trying???

You know, they say "misery loves company" and I could certainly use some company right about now.....*sigh*

Monday, April 13, 2009

Is 36 too early for menopause????

I've been having such a hard time sleeping lately that I have to wonder if menopause is on it's way. I mean I go to bed all cold and freezing and snuggle up nicely with my sheet, two blankets and the comforter, but then I wake up a few hours later sweating like a pig roasting on a spit! So I sit up to take the comforter off and realize I have to pee like a race horse! So I get up out of bed and walk to the bathroom to do my business, only to find all the sweat has now turned ice cold, so when I finally crawl back into bed I end up snuggling up with the comforter I had just sat up to take off! Geesh, I mean I know it's not hot flashes, but is it a precursor to hot flashes???

Then libido anyone??? I seem to have no desire for any hanky panky......I know I know TMI, but isn't that like another sign of impending menopause??? I still desire my dear sweet hubby and am more in love with him today that I was the day we got married, but I can't recall the last time I initiated anything. I'd rather just snuggle and fall asleep these days.

I dunno maybe none of it is related to menopause, but it would be nice to have something to blame.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Happy Easter to everyone!!!

I just wanted to wish you all a very Happy Easter. I hope you are all having a glorious day with your families. We're having a very relaxed and chill day here.

Of course there was some excitement when Tink finally lost a tooth the natural way! She's lost a tooth before but that was from a crash that resulted when she rode an office chair down a sloped driveway. She's so excited and can't wait to tell her teacher tomorrow that she lost a tooth "the right way" (her words). And she was was gnawing on a solid chocolate Easter Bunny when it happened.....I've always told them that too much sugar would rot their teeth out....maybe now they'll believe me! LOL ;)

We've done the egg hunt and watched "It's The Easter Beagle, Charlie Brown", but I can't seem to get any excitement over watching "Easter Parade", dang it, as it's one of my absolute favs.

Oh well, I'm just thankful to have a nice day with my family, even if they don't share my taste in movies. :)

Saturday, April 11, 2009

The day was going so well too....

...but then it started to go downhill about a half an hour ago. First it started off when Little Man decided to try and eat the blue Easter egg dying tablet. Not knowing if he actually swallowed it and not being able to find any information about accidental ingestion on the box, I called poison control. Thankfully we determined by reading the ingredients that it won't be toxic, but you'd think they'd put that on the blasted box. So now he has a blue mouth.

That wasn't so bad as it was frustrating but then Peaches came inside from the backyard and I really got frustrated.....

She brought in my brand new broom and it is now broken. I guess when I wasn't looking yesterday they took it outside and left it out there. Peaches says she has no idea how it got broken maybe the dog got it. But there are no teeth marks from the dog and it looks like it was snapped because the head of the broom is broken off of the handle.

And I loved that broom too! My old one I had had for like 8 years or so, so dear sweet hubby thought I deserved a new one.

I'm hoping he can fix it with some of that gorilla glue or something.


And I had such high hopes today would be a good day free from frustration. I was able to get the girls to clean their room this morning and we were going to make sugar cookies this afternoon followed by decorating eggs.

Maybe I just need some more caffeine and some food and then I can try to salvage the rest of the day.....

Friday, April 10, 2009

Can I get off the hamster wheel now?

Ever have that feeling that you are on a hamster's wheel, going round and round but getting absolutely nowhere?!?!

I've been having that feeling lately, kind of like I'm starring in that movie "Groundhogs Day" where every day is the same thing.

I don't know if it's because we've fallen into such a routine and don't vary from it often, if at all, or if it's because this is the longest my dear sweet hubby and I have lived in one house since we both lived at home, but whatever the reason I'm getting really annoyed with the feeling.

Of course it could also be because we didn't travel anywhere in 2007 or 2008 and now it looks like we'll be home bound again in 2009.

And I totally hate the fact that here I am again posting a whiny complaint instead of some cute story about one of my offspring. I just hate feeling like I'm complaining since being a stay-at-home mom is something most women would love to be instead of working for a living. But in my defense there are pros and cons to being a stay-at-home mom as well as a being a working mom. And while the grass may look greener on the other side of the fence, often times it's just an optical illusion.


Okay now I'm going to take my frustration and go clean up my kitchen and maybe get some laundry put away.....hahahahaha.....I may get the kitchen cleaned up but something tells me the laundry ain't going anywhere any time soon, well at least until tomorrow....

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

I'm so proud of myself

It was a bad bad bad morning here. Kids playing instead of getting ready for school. So needless to say I was quite happy to ship them all off to school. After the last one was gone I headed home and decided to take a nice long walk with the dog, without anyone complaining, walking too fast or walking too slow. It was the longest walk I've taken in a while and about half way through I almost wished I hadn't gone so far. But the dog was so happy to be out and in some new territory.

Not having a pedometer, well one that is reliable and also tells you how far you've walked, I had no clue how long of a walk I had taken. So after picking up the two youngest kiddos I headed to the gas station to fill up. Usually I hit the reset button on the mileage, so I can tell how many miles I get per tank.

But I didn't, I waited.

I waited until I got to the point in my walk that I stopped and turned around. And then I drove the same exact route that I had taken on my walk. You should have seen my surprise when I saw how far I had actually walked!!!

2.2 miles round trip!!!

No wonder the dog pretty much drank the entire contents of his water bowl and then plopped down and passed out!

It felt so good to do that but unfortunately I only have one morning a week that I can do that alone. The other kid free morning I spend volunteering at the girls' school. So I'm either going to have to have Little Man ride his bicycle or drag him along in the wagon if I want to do this walk more than once a week. I'm determined to shed a few pounds and since I absolutely detest dieting, love food too much and have no will power, I am going to try taking as many long walks as I can. It not only gets the dog out but it helps me to shed a few pounds in the process.

Keep your fingers crossed that the weather stays nice so I can keep it up, because I'm afraid if we get some more snow or another cold front I'm gonna stop and that wouldn't be good....

Sunday, April 5, 2009

My attempt at Artsy Fartsy photos...

I have 4 friends who are amazing photographers, 3 of them even have their own photography businesses. The one who isn't a professional is the sister of one of the ones who is, so their talent must be genetic or something. ;)

Anyway, one of the pros, Mrs. Davis, took some wonderful pictures of pink tulips and put them on her blog. I fell in love and not only wished I had her talent but a bouquet of pink tulips. Then a few days ago my dear sweet hubby came home with some pink tulips. Not wanting to assume they were for me I asked why he bought them. His reply was...."I saw them in the store thought they were pretty and bought them". So apparently he just bought them because HE liked them, but that's okay because we all got to enjoy their beauty.

Then later on that day it hits me....I have pink tulips now!!! I can try to take some nice pictures of them!!! Granted my little digital camera is probably nothing compared to Mrs. Davis', but it was worth a try.

So now without further adieu I will post MY attempt at some nice photography. Please put down all liquids you may be holding or drinking, as I wouldn't want to be responsible for you spewing it all over your monitor and keyboard....;)

Saturday, April 4, 2009

I've created a monster.....

My lovely oldest daughter has recently requested that she have her own blog. Nervous about her being so young and having a blog where she could give out too much information accidentally, I stalled. But she kept asking and I finally gave in, but made sure it was a private blog that only those we invited could read.

We created the blog last night and she's already got two posts and a play list on there. She even has the cute background going on.

I think I've created a monster......

Her first entry was so cute, it talked about how she got to take a book to school and got to wear a favorite dress of hers. Ah the things that are important to an 8 year old.

This mornings post talks about how it's snowing and she finished her book last night. It's so cute I can barely stand it!!!

I'm hoping that having this blog will help cultivate her love for writing. She's always been a creative child, sitting by herself and making up stories for her toys. Maybe this means she'll become a famous writer who not only gets to do what she loves but can make a living out of doing it.

So maybe while I've created a monster, maybe it will turn into a successful and happy one later on in can hope!

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

It's just not possible.....

....that in four short weeks my Little Man will be 4 years old!!! JUST NOT POSSIBLE!!!

I mean Peaches was 4 years old when Little Man was where did the time go???

I'm sad and yet happy at the same time. He's becoming such a fun little guy, but then I'm scared that if he gets too old he won't be the momma's boy he is now. We have such a wonderful time together, snuggling and giggling. And my heart literally melts each time he says "I love you mommy"....sniff sniff.

But I'm trying really hard to not wish time away and to take each day and enjoy it to it's fullest, even when the little bugger is getting into mischief......which I think he is doing as I type...time to go....... ;)